BRAINSTORM

newbie review.

2012-02-07T22:43:00.001+07:00

Jadi ceritanya saya banyak mendengar lagu - lagunya mbak Lana Del Rey di album Born to Die beberapa hari terakhir ini. Cukup enak di telinga ternyata. Ga se bizzare yang saya pikir sebelumnya. Buat saya dia cukup menawarkan bunyi - bunyian baru di telinga saya, old-skool-american movie-sound plus suaranya yang merdu lumayan asik didenger waktu kamu garap - garap tugas atau ber-risau-ria. Ngedengerin lagu - lagunya dia serasa lagi nonton film berwarna generasi awal. Vibe americannya juga makin kelihatan setelah saya ngliat music videonya, cukup witty and I love its color-tone.

//try//

Without You, Lolita, Born To Die.

blah

2012-01-31T07:02:00.003+07:00

I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it’s just too much. The current’s too strong. They’ve got to let go, drift apart. That’s how it is with us. It’s a shame, Kath, because we’ve loved each other all our lives. But in the end, we can’t stay together forever.
- Kazuo Ishiguro

2012-01-29T20:54:00.001+07:00

"Karena membaca dan menulis membuat saya tetap waras."

quoted.

I need another storage.

2012-01-29T10:28:00.000+07:00

hidup setelah liburan.

berantakan.

I need another storage!

baju berserakan.

cardigan ibu. cardigan favorit.

bags.

barang2 kuliah -,- masih ada karung goni bekas ospek juga *sigh.

blah

idea-dig

2012-01-19T09:13:00.000+07:00

swept by the silence.

2012-01-16T21:37:00.001+07:00

"..and I begin to feel, these things between us, it's real.. "
"..then be sure, 'cause it is."

model work.

2012-01-15T11:21:00.001+07:00

'The Sanctuary', 2012.

glass x wood

First real work. A bit (hmm, a lot sih) messy, but pretty much nice (at least for me, lol). hehe.
Soal dari tugas ini adalah ngebuat pondok doa buat ditaruh di belakang rumah kita, nah, ngambil dari ide An Naml, jadilah semacam bangunan 4 meter ditengah kolam yang merupakan pengembangan bentuk dari sarang semut itu sendiri. Bikinnya cukup riweuh karena ini sebenernya bangunan yang 'imajiner', saya sendiri gapernah liat bangunan begini, jadi ya... bingung mau start darimana hehe. Bismillah, semoga cukup maksimal untuk sebuah 'Tugas Besar'.
Voila!

blah

2012-01-11T17:36:00.004+07:00

Dissa is getting her life back. Full of sanity.

Full of friends, and their silly jokes. Love's around, sun shines brighter.
Belongs to God is the best thing she could mentions.

Hehe random, and I know it's kinda late, but, Happy 2012 fellas :)
Wish it's as good as we wish it'll be.

blah

times-to-times-greetings

2011-12-20T18:56:00.000+07:00

It's been a quiet world here on my blog. long time no moaning, or.. brainstorm things, like, random stuffs with no purpose. 'Cause now almost everything that I do has their own purpose. College stuffs, doin' its tasks, and so on and so on, life's becoming a routinity I can't escape.
Dog days are over fellas, 3 months after my entrance to college andddd....... dang! the exams are coming to town. There are three big projects I have to finish by the end of 2011. But thank God we had an awesome music-jam-session at campus, it's been a good yet refreshing time. So, thought I'm ready to goin back to those routine.
YAY!

2011-12-20T17:31:00.000+07:00

hey there, remember?

life after college

2011-11-03T17:31:00.000+07:00

Itunes open lyk always; pencils & sharpener are my weapons.

eraser is a must-have saviour.

sketch&sketch.

messy workspace. *sigh*

this is just a beginning. though it'll be hard-yet-long path, I'll enjoy it. Lots of fun awaits. :)

blah

dedicated to you

2011-09-28T22:42:00.001+07:00

dedicated to you, a young boy who's blessed to has a dad like him, to you, the tough one.
he never really leave you. he's there, besides you, in your hardest beat of heart, in your rise and in your fall, when things go crazy, and when the sky seems to mourn in gloom.
you'll be okay dear. you'll be okay. you'll be great before you grow old. you'll make him proud.

#inyouitrust

:)

to infinity and beyond

2011-09-24T20:09:00.001+07:00

mungkin memang ga banyak yang bisa melukiskan saya dan kamu.
ga banyak yang tersisa. kecuali kotak - kotak artsy yang kamu kasih ke saya jaman bahula dulu, jaman kita masih sekolah. kotak - kotak yang sering saya buka lagi, saya lihat lagi, dan saya baca lagi isinya.

cuma kita yang tahu tentang kita.

terimakasih untuk pernah dan selalu ada.
*titik dua kurung tutup*

blah

2011-08-31T15:49:00.000+07:00

second trial seems to worth nothing.

blah

-.-.-.-.--.

2011-08-31T15:35:00.000+07:00

3 bulan unemployed, jadi remaja gelisah, antara lulus sma dan nunggu masuk kuliah, makes me believe that 'life was just about to prove the universe's theory'. Satu demi satu quote menjadi berfungsi, those pharagraphs I usually read comes true. Biasanya hidup diisi dengan keluhan tentang sekolah dan hal - hal sekitarnya, tapi ternyata semua itu engga ada apa - apanya dibanding 'the life after'. Hidup diluar orang tua, saat kita stands by our own ability jauh lebih rumit dibanding itu.
Hidup dewasa itu tidak se simple yang dibayangkan. Faking feelings itu tidak ada rampungnya, dimana faking feelings itu sudah tidak buruk lagi. Memang untuk hidup kedepannya kita ga bisa segamblang sekarang, curcol di twitter, nge galau dan lain - lain. Ngebayangin deh, kalau orang tua saya moodnya disembur2 secara gamblang, pasti udah hancur berantakan deh urusan mereka. They keep their probs on their own. Masalah kerja ya masalah kerja, rumah ya rumah. Emotion placement. That is what keeps their life in sanity.
Ini semua masalah jaga perasaan #tssah. Saya jaga, kamu juga. Gimana caranya supaya ga ada gesekan di antaranya. And I believe that this kind of 'human-to-human-relationship' perlu pembelajaran seumur hidup. Butuh insentif seumur hidup juga buat ngejalaninnya.

blah

and the night flaws without any objection_

2011-08-01T22:55:00.003+07:00

if this is about a milky way, yes, you're not the sun - the central blow - , neither the jupiter. You're the saturn, not the biggest, or the most influentive. But your gravity is enough to convulse my universe, yet your icy ring coud tear apart my asteroid bushes. Why can't you just understand?

blah

_

2011-07-28T00:34:00.001+07:00

there's a time when I was screwed up. when I was walking into the crowd and suddenly hate everyone. when I wasn't give a fuck of every speeches people spelled. when tears has lost its boundaries.
Current moods were changing as quick as the ocean's wave. Embarassing how a seventeen year old move its maturity backward.. Or, maybe it's the part of maturity? Well, I never know 'till I lap on few years after.. This adolescence stage still unfinished. With a heavy complicacy, this life goes on. I'm pursuing myself so I could step as fast as the universe blows. I'm in the middle of making some efforts; talk less, say more; whine less, breathe more; hear less, listen more; see less, discover more..

....
blah

rise against, Indonesia!

2011-07-10T23:48:00.000+07:00

Several weeks ago, I got a golden opportunity to interview bunchs of youth, that I think, had captured some parts of man-kind in Indonesia. There's the emotional one, the excited one, the over-excited one, the cool one, the weird one, the wise one, and so on. Some of them are two years younger than me, three, two, one years older than me, and the rest having the same age as me. They may had a very different background with me, but somehow, all of our backgrounds and ages are just demolished by the same vision we had. From this same vision, we're linked on the same spirit. Like a ballerina, when we had the same goal, we'll had the same movement, then we'll hit our perfect rhythm.
Same things to do towards Indonesian youth, that they've to be embedded a belief about Indonesia, a spirit to rise against. I'm so sure that this Mother Pertiwi soon will be great, seen from the very intellegent and the full-spirited youth. The matter is just how to manage and occupied the potential idea of these amazing youngsters, so theirs could be used for Indonesia's development.
There has been so many youth empowerment organizations, whether in a small scale or a big scale, but why did it can't significantly develop our country? I think it's all because there's no link in between these youth empowerment organisations and the government. all of the efforts are independent, and it couldn't actually affect the change which youths want to made, example; car-free day.
In the developed city, transportation thingies are getting barbaric. the demand of personal vehicle are extremely high whether the facilititation of public transportation couldn't subtitute the comfort which personal vehicle gives, and it means: traffic jam&polluted air. when the youth wants to make a kind of change like car-free day, to reduce the pollution&give an awareness towards healthy lifestyle also global warming, they need supports from the government to empower this activity by spurring the citizen.
Those people stand by the name of Government should start to looking up the youth and its potency as a movement, for a better generation and a better development, of course. We had 60 percent of youth/teenager right here in Indonesia, use 'em. We just need a same vision, same belief, we need to be one, to develop our country. Youth and Government side by side doing a change, how great if it could be realized. Rise against, Indonesia. We're half way there, half way to the better future!

blah

post schoolstorm

2011-06-07T20:41:00.001+07:00

things I've done lately

so happy that the schoolstorms has end. yea that schoolstorm; nat exam, snmptn, graduation, college regist and elses.

and so happy, and thankful, I'm now your architect buddy at gadjah mada ;) hope I could enjoy my college time as I do with my highschool's, amin!

well, so here I am, trying to doing something useful for the next three months. college would start on september, and today is still June --.-- I'm planning to earn some money with my folks, spend fun times with friends&boyf, and do some social stuffs with IFL (a kind of youth empowerment independent org.) hope it all could work well, fellas ;)

blah

self assure

2011-05-24T00:50:00.004+07:00

so, this is the short story; got drown in tears in a whole day, couldn't sleep well, even I was crying in my sleep. so pathetic. I know. that was the first time I free-fall so hard, could't hold any single tears. it just drown me. till I was tired of crying. I tried to memorize the funny things, works, for some seconds, the rest was just a flood of tears came from my eyes. Then I was trying to listened to my playlist, a happy playlist. works, for some minutes, the rest was just a flash-back time, pathetic. Finally, I read. it works. till now. feel so better after that. I read a lot, magazines, comics, novels. so helping. then I picture all of my thoughts, trying to visualize all of those forlon into a new hope; fight the future series. enjoy :)

I'll fight the future, for you, for us, universe.

life's may grew complicately. somehow we gotta do what we want, push all the limit, cause actually the limitation comes from here, from our heart, be brave. love what we do, do what we love, we hand our fortune. cause there will be no end in this universe, in our aftermath. what we're always have is chapters. one chapter, two, hundreds, thousands chapters of our life. we just need to open them, one by one.

for all of the postponed obsession. for all of the hanging dreams. liebe from this girl. liebe. 5 cm liebe. stay close.

blahxxxx

2011-04-22T16:22:00.002+07:00

"Dear Allah, please bless this girl, for whatever she's praying for, bless her for whatever she's doing show her right path of her life, please do betterment about all of her life. Love her so much that You will protect her from sins. Give her a value of a great journey in the world." -Adnina Hariningrum. Amin<3

>>Ginger Ninja - Sunshine

Sixteen had been an awesome age of mine. It started like 'sublime' and ended toughly. It was a transformation from the fun phase on my 2nd into the hard phase through all the struggle on my 3rd year. A whole process. I came out as a catterpillar and I'm willing to change into a butterfly. You might say it's a total cliche, but it's just how it is, how it's happen. There's a lot of ups and downs. There's a lot of individualism and end-up-depress.
Well, I'm not gonna talk as if I've finish highschool and all of the struggle. So, let me please you for a good wish on graduation&univ entrance. Let me be as progressful as a triangle, as tough as an antler, and as calm as a deer. I bet my seventeenth year would be more awesome. Step into the next level of maturity. More change, more challenge, more responsibility, more downs, and more ups, with college life, driving license, and of course a citizen card ;)

P.S: thanks fellas//boyf for yer surprises//gifts. they w-o-r-k so well. xoxo

blah

#aprilwish

2011-04-01T12:38:00.000+07:00

▲PRAY ME FOR THE NATIONAL EXAM&UNIVERSITY ENTRANCE, FELLAS.▲

x2011x

GOD BLESS US.

xoxo

blah

2011-04-01T12:30:00.000+07:00

we started clean then grew in a riot. together. all of this perception about you changed. but this heart isn't.

"yOU’RE THE LIGHT. YOU’RE THE SMILE. YOU’RE THE MOOD BOOSTER. YOU’RE A BROTHER. YOU’RE A BEST FRIEND. YOU’RE THE EAR. YOU’RE THE SAD MOMENT. YOU’RE THE SHIT ASS. YOU’RE THE COMEDIAN. YOU’RE A SKETCH. YOU’RE THE SONG. YOU’RE THE SKY. YOU’RE THE CLOUD. YOU’RE THE MESS. YOU’RE THE ONE FOR NOW"
▲LIEBE

this was my first post on tumblr. posted like somewhen on April, 2010.
now it's been a year&you're still the one that drops me like a heavy rain, and light me like a supermoon on the summer.

blah

feeling worse

2010-12-20T13:43:00.001+07:00

never expect anything.

I never ask you to do this, do that.

never want too much.

never ask too much

never order too much

never be too sensitive

never be too angry

never be too tricky

never be too dependant

never be too careful.

but I've been too sure

I'm the mrs. brighside. I've been her. But I'll be her no more.

thought I've knew you well. but actually, I just don't.

I don't want you to be mr. perfect, I never wanted that. you're what you are and nothing I need to ask more. I never aim too high, wanting so much things from you. I like what you are. But why'd you have to do this. do the thing I don't like. one small thing that you did so easily without realizing what could my feeling be when I knew it.

The more I think about it, the more this heart trembled.

I'm not a typical of person that could easily forget bad memories. I may looked in a state, looked like I could accept it. but deep inside, still I think about it. it's always been like that. forgive, but not forget. and in this case, I couldn't mend my thoughts. so many question that makin me feel worse. why did I'm so sure that you are good behind me? why did you do that? did you care of me? am I too foolish, or it's you that's too smart? am I that careless? it's all still cyclin in my brain. you couldn't force me to trust you a hundred percent.

what you did isn't the main point. the way you disgress my trust is.

lesson's learned

blah

2010-09-17T08:45:00.001+07:00

it's funny now,
how when I looked into benches in my terrace, all the scenes are rewinding

there, on the bench, we talked about everything
there, on the bench, you were joking around
there, on the bench, the night temperature wasn't a matter
there, on the bench, you stood up holding a birthday cake
then there, on the bench, you reveal me your dishonest
also surprised me with that funny giraffe
there, on the bench, I slap you then laughing out loud
there, on the bench, you poked me back
there, on the bench, you said you are about to have a college test soon
and now I was saying that so
there, on the bench, I always pick the leaf, chop it, and throw it to you
there, on the bench, you were wondering why did there's no fish in the pond
there, on the bench, you said I'm going more blubbery
then I said you're too thin
there, on the bench, you played my hair
and I always said 'don't be jealous of my hair, cause it grows down, not up like yours'
there, on the bench, we were waiting for the rain off
there, on the bench, we shared our dreams
there, on the bench, silence never harm the convenience
...

blah

two years of lebaran

2010-09-07T20:42:00.000+07:00

one shot in mudik days; in family's car; in the middle of traffic jam;
a year ago

blah

words, stories, thoughts. all from my dizzy temple

2010-09-06T10:48:00.000+07:00

ever know that words are swords.
and now, after that plenty of times, I find again that this quote is simply true

say what you need to say, not what you want to say.
because, maybe what we want isn't mutually good for what we need. say what we need to say means holding our passion to talk about anything, that may, be a secret. say what we need to say, not talking too much, because once you're wrong, it may kills you. even for a second.

shares story with God
feeling unconvenient to tell my stories, uhm, problems explicitly about what I feel don't ever mean that I don't need a place to say it out loud. but, need a place also don't have a meaning that its place would given to a human, no. I'd rather to reveal it to God, since I have faith that God always see what we've did, always listening, always understanding. shares story with God commonly filled with tears and anger, where I sometimes just laying on the floor after the pray, and let the tears fell down my face. God never give me any advice, God never give me an instant solvement, and also God never ever say a word to me, as if I tell story to my friends. But, magically, without that clarity, I feel relieve. The value is not about the answer, but about the feeling I get, that God surely listens. The contemplation that really save me from being out of line.

not that I do not believe
I like you guys, parents, sister. sometimes I'm being too weird, if I had a problem. It doesn't reflect my belief to you, I'm surely believe you guys. I know you may hear me, you would like to solve the problem too, helps me. But it's all just about the comfort, the convenience, not the trust. And, however I'm moving forward, not as introvert as before hehe

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Randomly talking like an ass. Based on my body's temper. Not really well. And my thoughts, that's also a bit sick haha have fun, the Lebaran Day is coming :D woo hoo

blah

2010-08-21T16:13:00.001+07:00

I want to see m o r e.

I'm sixteen now. And there's so much things I want to do, so much things I eager to know, so much things I want to show and gazillion I want to learn. I'm thirst for that adventure. My life's good but it's not a sin for wanting more, rite?. I want experiences. Backpacking w/ some friends, ride a car by my own, go to Kalimantan, Lombok, Middle East, and Russia. I want 'em all!
I want to fill my bedroom's wall with my own sketch, buy some roses and place it near my window then smell them every morning. And I want to plant a sunflower on my little garden's soil, want to add some fish into the pond, want to place a bouquet of lavender in the dining room. I want to make a lampoon, a red one, to lit my night so I wouldn't feel alone hahaha

I'm stuck rite now.

I've done some things but I consider so well that those things are not enough. I'll live maximally for about 90 years again, and could be productively having fun for about 8 years then I'll get married (whwhwhat?) --" so, wish me luck to enjoy all of this! as you know, we only live o n c e.

blah

in my cocoon. bored to death.

2010-08-12T14:06:00.000+07:00

I'll post this one in Indonesian :)

sekarang saya sedang di kamar, di hari kedua ramadhan taun ini, ditengah matahari yang lagi jion sama bumi, dan saya sedang bosan akut. a long term boredom..

"I've nothing to do and I hate that.

because usually I always had any idea what about to do,

and I now I just don't"

males banget menghadapi siang - siang seperti ini. sebenernya kalo ngaji dan belajar malah lebih berpahala ya dibanding nggrundel di blog aaa tapi yaudah lah, namanya juga lagi jauh sama mood bagus. jadi akhirnya saya berakhir diantara picture file saya saat liburan ke Bogor dan Jakarta, actually when I'm pretending to be a master of enviroment and landscape engineer :DDD dengan sedikit sotoshoppin, jadilah beberapa pict ini. here, enjoy :)

jakarta's afternoon polluted sky

the high and the low. capitalism

messy infastructure. I'd love to help when i'm an engineer :p

build. build. build. hey bosses, better you spent your money on improving what the city have had.

blah

hand wave

2010-08-09T23:37:00.001+07:00

vote

the sanggar tari dance

bondan and fade 2 black in action

wohoo, finally the school music event's thingie has finished :) I'm kinda miss the crews and also the hectic situations hehe but well, I've got to face the truth that I'm now a third grader (wish me luck in 2010/2011 :D) and I guess I've had enough memories to remember when I'm graduated later.

I've got enough karaoke time, I've got enough bowling strikes, I've got enough watching movies, I've got enough danger trip far away, I've got enough birthday gatherings, I've got enough gigs-to-go, I've got enough being out from home all day long and so on. gotta postpone it for a while ;) (ih gayane) haha

blah

morning world

2010-06-29T21:43:00.000+07:00

this is my lousy t-shirt. it was my mother's. it's so comfortable even if it was ripped in several places hahaha the older tee you have, the more comfort to wear, rite?
hmm now it's 9 and a half hour. now it's already night. but lemme say goodmorning, an acronym for spirit. this is day minus twoooooooo for VOTE#10. Can't wait!! :-) It must be really joyable!

blah

in Love

2010-06-29T20:46:00.001+07:00

I'm so much in Love rite nowwww

with..............

TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB!!

found this Electro/Indie Pop band from Northern Ireland on Last.fm website. Downloaded their song titled Something Good Can Work and suddenly just love its beat and somehow the vocalis's accent (Y) Woohoo, a new band to listen for sure!

me like Something Good Can Work. You're Not Stubborn, Undercover Martyn, What You Know, and I Can Talk<3

blah

#totalrandom

2010-06-10T16:39:00.002+07:00

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für den roten Himmel blaue Luftballons candy Gras gelbe Sonne Meer Green Ocean Vögel violetten Lilien Blume Land regen Filme Musiken iPod Computer-grau schwarz weiss zebra girrafe Photoshop Eis Kamera All Time Low Hellogoodbye Kunst Skizzenbuch Turnschuhe Gummischuhe Pink Orange Pfirsich Joghurt Donuts Scanner glow in the dunkle Fläche Sofa Magazin Pop-up-Kaffee-Tee Vitamin C Wolke Wind die Bäume und die wilden und alle wegen meiner Lieblingsbeschäftigungen.

Ich vermisse dich

pour le ciel rouge bleu bonbons ballons de la mer d'herbe jaune soleil vert oiseaux océan violet fleur de lys terres films pluie musiques iPod ordinateur gris noir blanc photoshop girrafe zèbre crème glacée appareil tous all time low hellogoodbye art chaussures en caoutchouc sketchbook espadrilles rose pêche yaourt orange beignets scanners brillent dans le sombre pop magazine avion canapé au café de vitamine C thé nuage brise les arbres et les sauvages et toutes les raisons de mes choses préférées.

Tu me manques

for the red sky blue balloons candy grass yellow sun sea green ocean birds violet lily flower land rain movies musics iPod computer gray black white zebra girrafe photoshop ice cream camera all time low hellogoodbye art sketchbook sneakers rubber shoes pink orange peach yoghurt donuts scanners glow in the dark plane sofa magazine pop up coffee tea vitamin C cloud breeze the trees and the wild and all the sake of my favorite things.

I-miss-you

blah

Adieu

2010-06-10T16:07:00.000+07:00

"Adieu saison qui finissez
Vous nous reviendrez aussi tendres"

I know that death would finally come to our life. that death is something that exist in this universe. and that death is not just surreal. As surreal as when I saw your dead body placed inside the sepulcher's burrow, just about 4 days ago. I still remember it very well. It's like implicitly reminds me that we're so busy live in with our earth borne body, so busy pampering the outside without remembering that finally what we take is only those pieces of white fabric, and our advantage for the others, our knowledge.

I believe my God. I believe my religion. I believe that there would be a life after death, that soul is immortal. And our body is just a package of it. So then, with smile and readiness, I wish you a better life there. Your visibilities may bounded by time and destiny, but your knowledge would last. May your soul rest on His side, Grandpa :)

"Farewell season has finished
You will return to us as tender"

blah

top 5 old skool band

2010-05-02T21:26:00.001+07:00

1. The Beatles

LIKE THIS :) esp for the accent hehe

♥ Help!, Hey Jude, Come Together

2. Queen

The iconic band. Can't get enough of bohemian rhapsody huehe

♥ Bohemian Rhapsody, Bicycle

3. Duran Duran

My mother was like crazy about this band. She was even rent a DVD of duran-duran's v clip when she was young hahaha and I have no wonder how I love British band, according to my mom :p

♥ Rio, Hungry Like the Wolf

4. Carpenters

My parents, especially my mom often play its songs. And I'm influenced woohoo

♥ Can't Smile Without You, Close to You, We've Only Just Begun

5. The Smiths

suddenly love this band by its single on 500 days of summer :)

♥ There's a Light That Never Goes Out, Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want

blah

bowl&birthday

2010-04-23T16:34:00.002+07:00

we was playing on three line :-0 the bowling arena was suddenly get so noisy with our existences there hahaha it was very fun! I was point for two strike B-)

blah

happy burstday, mocin

2010-04-23T16:13:00.001+07:00

09/04/2010
happy birthday ayusarita! she's seventeen now.
seventeen is an important year. It has to be surprising, fascinating haha because I think, seventeen (espescially for a girl) is a year that marks a maturity of a teenager. in seventeen years, you could drive yer own car. you could watch a plus film hahaha (it's a lie, those age parenting is just bullshit, isn't it?) ;p
hope you'll have a good year, pal!

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made by me, him, anna, nina :)

blah

sixteen :-)

2010-04-23T16:03:00.000+07:00

30/03/2010

happy birthday to me.

that day was a great day to pass. even there's no him around hehe. family sang a happy birthday when I woke up. friends give me some gifts, ririe&mas didot with their puzzle, nina and her shirt, anna and the toy paper, and the rewooos, wulan sinta izan uma sandy abel wanti maya ami erlina tia ayang rini, gave me a hand made lamp, and the rest gave me a burst of school pond's water and i'm goin wet -,.-

and then I got home. took a shower. go to my mom's room. but then home's bell rang. my sister said that there's my friend outside. and then I came out. well there's him out there, standing, holding a plate of birthday cake, smiles to me. surprised. he said that he was goin out from city in the morning. and then he did a confession, week before that he acted like a shit ass, so annoying, full of badmood, and then he confessed that it was all for surprise. oh how I hate him that time haha and he gave me those picture above. it's from canvas, in black and white paint. again, thanky-o-u dude :-)

well now, it's almost a month I'm being a sixteen yeats old quirks. hope it would be a great year to pass and to learn. good start must be have a good end too, rite? xxxxo

blah

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2010-03-11T20:43:00.000+07:00

since I was a kid, I always want to be an architect.

but I grew older and time keep elaborating my view about the working environment

ambassador, politician, doctor, socialist...

and now I'm in 11th grade. minus 1 year again to point what's actually I'm purposing to be

linking back to what I like. I like seeing buildings and suburbs. They're beautiful. Well seems like I'd like to be an architect, or an infrastructure planner, still :d

blah

just so you know

2010-03-11T20:21:00.001+07:00

you're nice, you're good.

and losing you is so not in my head right now.

Yes I'm careless and I'm sorry.

blah

award

2010-03-07T15:15:00.000+07:00

barusan saya dapat award :d

# award pertama

Yang musti dilakuin :

1. Banner Award tidak boleh di ubah, baik tulisan ,warna, dan signaturenya. Tapi kalau resize gambar boleh. (Banner ya bukah Header!)

2. Tuliskan siapa yang ngasih Award dan urlnya: Melia A. :)

3. Pilih 10 female blogger yang kamu kenal dan belum nerima Award ini,dan sebutkan alasan kenapa kamu pikir dia layak dapetin Award ini.

# award kedua dari Melia A. jugaa haha

dan kedua award itu saya bagikan kepada:

1. Addina Faizati

2. Medina Rachma Lea

3. Katya Sekarani

4. Alanna Alia

5. Adnina Hariningrum

cool blogs B)

****

blah

anywhere but here

2010-02-25T23:04:00.000+07:00

I'm so lost this backadays. Lost about you. I feel so far away.
Where are you? Where are you?
Why should I shout your name? Why did I questions your existance?
How could I feel this way?
This is not the way I am. I never feel this way.
..
As I try to forget and being careless, the more I question, the more I did care
What is this? What is this?
Oh how the hell you could do this

blah

great!

2010-02-25T22:56:00.000+07:00

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blah

bowling!

2010-02-12T18:03:00.000+07:00

24/1/10

SUNDAY! Me and this bunch of schoolmates decided to spend our lazy day into a sweaty day with playing bowling!

***

haven't played yet

aliban got her turn first :d

anna and yoga waited their turn!

our today's top scorer; ARDA-left, then IZAN-right

what a tiring play, hungry? KFC awaits :9

***

What a bad game I had haha I'm in underdog place -______________- score of 11 or something zz but after that, 2 weeks later we played and I'm in a middle place with about 40 something score, wee-hoo! such an improvement rite? :P

blah

galau

2010-02-09T10:26:00.001+07:00

Saya sedang nggak jelas dengan semuanya, semua rencana udah kebayang tapi nggak ada yang 100% beres. Saya tau mau ngelakuinnya gimana, tapi juga nggak kelaksana. Ibarat kaki deh ya, saya udah tau cara nendangnya tapi kok ya nggak mental - mental. Kenapa ya? Apa saya terlalu individual? Ah kayaknya saya juga udah terbuka sama yang lain. Apa ini cuma galau sementara? Kalau iya, mau sampai kapan? Waktu tuh jalan terus, kita nggak bisa diam aja.

Nah sekarang, badmood, nih kata menurut saya corny banget, walaupun saya sekarang entah kenapa sering dilanda badmood. I've never been so moody before. Ada aja deh suatu hal yang bikin gak asik sekarang - sekarang ini, mau dari yang nggak penting dari laper, nyampe yang serius kayak pertemanan. Hm, now things are getting so much more complicated ya, nggak semua yang kita pengen tuh gampang buat diraih, kita juga msti bisa struggle with ourselves. I have plenty of friends to having fun, bunches to share some stories, but none to rely on :)

blaah

can't get enough of

2010-02-02T22:09:00.000+07:00

#1 LADY GAGA TO INDONESIA PLEASE :p

since we know that her stage performance is always unpredictable, I was just curious about what she would perform, in a country like this, like Indonesia. With her eccentric fashion taste and blah blah blah, and about her stage decoration! viva la just dance

#2 LYKKE LI LOVE

saw her firstly in Little Bit video, suddenly fell in love with her catchy voice&tunes. How she could made some painful lyric in a fun way :D and about her voice, like a kinder voice, like it lykke it hehe again, like her way to wrote a broken heart song, but make us optimistic, not shrinkin by the tears

#3 ESRA ROISE <3
got her web from BabyBoss magazine! I like the way she mix a pencil art with fashion daily. It was just artsy. Heart the idea, combining a pure pencil art with watercolor! brilliant, isn't it?

#4 RUSSEL
I have a friends that looks like RUSSEL, funny, chubby, and silly haha I always laugh when she shouts 'good afternoon, my name is Russel', or 'I'm the one blablabla should be explored, Gaa Gaaa, RAWR!'. Really a stress-free theraphy. And since our journal club, sigma, like to repeat that scene, we made a new tagline too.... 'Sigma, should be explored! Gaa Gaa RAWR'

#5 TWITTEURRR
since that wi - fi is just everywhere, and since that my phone could catch its signal, and since I couldn't be far of my phone, I can't get enough of tweeting. Sounds trashy, rite? Your tweet your bear, but also your news. If I got boring, open it up make you seems not alone. trust me

i'm hungry!
blah

PANGANDARAN!

2010-01-28T05:20:00.000+07:00

My school were holding a study trip in Pangandaran. 4 days. research. we. the students. about three weeks ago!

even firstly it was heard like so 'e-u-w-h'. it's really fun actually. here's the pict :-)

economic train. so hot. but music helps anyway

after 5 hours train trip. 1 hour bus trip. small bus. raining

***

day 1; research

my team's research is about goa rengganis. to go there, we had to rent a boat!

this is the isle we pass. me and hera (my team mates) love it so much!

before we went to goa rengganis, the guide took us to some other cave.OK, finally, RENGGANIS :) we took some sample then went to our hotel back.

in the afternoon. we bike a tandem around the beach. drinking degan and footstepping in a shore!

midnight laugh!

***

day 2; research? what is that?

snorkling with classmates&friends!

above; seeing the pangandaran shore

climb into the waterfall!

the waterfall was great! kesananya aja udah bikin melengos. 2 hours full walking with just 3 bottles of aqua! buat sebelas orang \m/ nyampe sana hujan, pulangnya busyet licin gitu naik guunung. cool <3

***

blah!

artsy fancy

2009-12-29T21:12:00.000+07:00

things me did lately :)
exam over, nothing to do.
while I was waiting my report -__-

this is for Dioooooooh

a good luck piece from me hehe

***

this is for Sintaaaaa, my classmate

Nina, Sandy, Anna hit my house. Sinta is a person that good at memorising someone's bday, so we want to give her something. We are LACK of money. So me and them decided to make this kinda box-home-alike. Pocket friendly \m/

***

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SMAN 1 YOGYA :)

You're 52 years OLD. please take care of our new junior, they're a bit, ehm, nasty (not all). teach em ya? :p

Okay, ask me what is this. Some guys said it is a Sperm -________- it is tottaly not. It's a WHAAAALE!

*by the way, I heart the red whale, soswehhhhhht*

***

fin fin fin fin fin

need money money money moneeeeeeeeeeeeeeey

blah $

holding my future

2009-12-29T20:26:00.001+07:00

"your future is in your hand, exactly"
said my parents.

I thought that my struggle was enough for this semester. I thought I've tried my best, Iam breaking my leg as it could be. I thought.

I said so as my excuse to them, but they just say, "okay, so then we don't think that work hard is a special thing" "it is what we used to struggle"

--fin
I had no more excuse, I'm dying, I'm a waste, I'm dead

"If you said that you've struggle so crazy, but you still got this kinda score, means that you said that you aren't able. Meanwhile, we believe that you're able to get a better score"

This is the first time in my high school stories that they seems so disappointed. So sorry.

At least i've tried. And yes I'm failed here, now, today.
But not that 6 months forward.
I want to reach my star outter this space.

"Back to when we started, losing who we were.

Maybe we should only tip a bottle back to keep us filled up

Back to when we started, losing who we were.

Everybody knows that you'd break your neck to keep your chin up"

Thanks for Nina and Ririe for lit a little candle in my mind :)

blaah

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaai

2009-12-21T22:21:00.000+07:00

Blognya kenapa sih kalo dibuka di firefox bikin emosi aja zz nggak mau nongol tulisan dengan jelas -,- langsung webnya nggak mbentuk ergh

things I've done lately

2009-11-28T20:09:00.000+07:00

Rabu kemarin libur hari guru...

"A-sik-a-sik-li-bur-an",

jerit hati saya, tapi males banget gatau mau ngapain hari itu. bored to the max zz nggak tau siapa yang bisa diajak pergi juga, males melas banget lah. akhirnya saya lihat tembok kamar saya yang masih kosong. ngebuka2 jendela internetchs, dapet inspirasi deh <3>

about 8 AM, nina came to my house; ask me to made a kind of birthday card for her, ehem, bestfriend :P

***

I made this (above) on the 3rd year of my JHS; UAN stressed out :pp so, I sticked it to my wall

Then, my last work of the day; a greeting card for my door :D

***

after making those artworks, I felt that this holiday sweat a worth. I love that feeling :-) then I go swimming, alone! so I could be focus and laaaast, craving for j.cool! yeah

blah

eleventh

2009-11-25T07:14:00.000+07:00

moody; abstract mind, bourdained of thoughts

disorientation; nowhere to go, confused by ourselves

labile; sensitive? easy to explode when given a shake

those are three words that I've learnt in this November rain.

how about you? :)

p.s: 2 months&i knw y better :p amin

blaaah

lunatic insomniac

2009-10-19T00:57:00.000+07:00

ah akhir2 ini jadwal tidur saya berantakan! apa2an deh ya, tidur jam 8 malem, bangun jam 12, tidur lagi jam 3, bangun jam 5, sekolah...........

muka saya kayak orang teler.

bener deh. memble gajelas tiap pagi. dan situasi seperti ini bikin emosi jadi fluktuatif, naik turun, panas dingin, kayak lagunya katy perry gitu dechtsss. ah gapenting. yang jelas, sekarang saya sedang teler berat pengen tidur, tapi eh apa daya mata ga bisa shut down. yaudah as usual buka komputer, dibanding buka fisika :B ditambah lagi, hari - hari libur buat hibernasi malah saya buat jadi hari hari capek.

ngeluh itu nggak bagus, saya tahu persis

tapi ya gimanaaa. saya sedang sedikit depresi sama jam tidur saya. ini aja saya belum mandi loh -,- tidur dari jam 5an sore trus bangun jam setengah 12 malam, gimana mau mandi? malah rematik tulang keropos ohno maan :O --lebay

wah gimana ini gimana ini pengen liburan tapi seminggu lagi mid. ah gatau waktu dan tempat banjeheeeets deh saya. ah emang yg namanya orang gapernah puas kali ya wouwo.
ah tapi yaudah deh, jadwal nggak karuan ancur gini, mumpung masih kelas 2 haha inget - inget deh besok kelass tiga udah gabisa ngapa2.

"jadi robotnya uan, belajar - les - pembinaan - try out."

argk. mndingan ikut acara2 raceto kayak di kelas dua :B manfaatin waktu. sma cuman 3 tahun sayangnya -- stressing but also enjoyable. i hope :)

straight plan for a week forward \m/
nyelesain artikel yang udah berabad - abad incomplete (kita punya 'miyabi project' loh, a kind of a secret prjct :B); pinjem catetan temen secara catetan saya bolong - bolong, kalo lagi niat ya full warna - warni, kalo enggak ya udah tulisan latin gajelas, ruwet begete deh; nonton tontayyy, eh gelah belom prnah ntn sama sekali, penasaran liat hasil latian tmn2 tonti di sekolah :D; pergi kemana gitu yang jelas main, ohemjeh butuh hiburan lalala;

sekilas informasi yang bisa saya berikan di malam, ehem, maksut saya pagi buta ini. im sorry of being a bit lunatic, but this is all i can do. biar nggak stress gitu hlo, nulis - nulis aja yyeyeye

blaah

life is a party

2009-10-06T22:13:00.000+07:00

belajar ngeBokeh

everything is okay, in the end; if it's not okay, so it's not the end :)

life is a party we have to celebrate, no matter how hard and how damn it was and would be.

life is not damn thing over another, it's damn thing over and over.....................

in the middle of self reconstruction,
blah

picnic; departure

2009-09-27T14:16:00.000+07:00

below; read up the map, heil GPS

below, my favourite :3

random shots
22 of September <3>
jatim has a good scenery, doesn't it?

blah

i don't even care if my mom or my sister read this post, and stare me like 'what are you doing' with big eyes and opened mouth

2009-09-27T11:09:00.000+07:00

too many words to be spread. too many heartbeats to count. and too many feelings to be thrown. that's what i think when i have to described you, dude. i have known you one year ago, yes one year ago, since when i went to our highschool. and i think i pretty know you. we're never that far, and so do never that close before. you're the one i could never forget, i don't know why. being around y never makes me nervous or what, i just comfortable with you. maybe because we've known each other for a pretty long time, but i respect you as my friends i just think you're such a best friend of mine, i share my story and all my yells to you.
im not waiting for you to say, i even didn't dare to. i don't want to be those optimistic, being with you is just nice enough. letting you know that i do care for you is just what i want to. im not pushing you to claim or underlining our relation. i just want you to know, and want me to know that you do.
it's all unpredictable, im letting it flows as the time goes. settle my mind to the nothing to loose mode, but then you did say. thanks for what you've done :) now, im still wondering, how would this life be when there's no you inside my lifetime page...
too many words to be spread. too many heartbeats to count. and too many feelings to be thrown... yes it is.

blah

mygohddd

2009-09-17T08:02:00.000+07:00

mygod. dulu saya mencerca habis2an artis beginian. tapi sekarang saya kena karma --

but this one, it's good y knw. the fashion sense&the clip&the dance are damn good. y should check thisssss out. ohmygohd, kuhl!

blah

pictetsch

2009-09-13T09:02:00.000+07:00

my random pict, my one year :]

we're fresh sophomore

me, dika, abel, ami

---

we're the junior now!

still; dika, me, ami, abel, lina, dias!

---

sanden; <3

me, ami, echa, fitha, royan, chandra, rifki, manda, arsyi, aldi

put this on deviantart!http://dissa-hellyeah.deviantart.com

blaah

my favorite song, for now!

2009-09-12T23:30:00.000+07:00

hey, i just heard this song&&suddenly just loove it <3<3

iheartfriday&&saturday!

owl city - saltwater room

I opened my eyes last night and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay, on the shore, staring up at the planes that arent there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently before
You happened to look and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark underground
All the subways around create a great sound
To my motion fatigue: farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside a saltwater room

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone, I've never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone and wouldn't let me sign on?
All my islands have sunk in the deep, so I can hardly relax or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home some nights when we count all the ship lights
I guess Ill never know why sparrows love the snow
We'll turn off all of the lights and set this ballroom aglow

Our time together is just never quite enough
When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time.

blaah

2009-09-09T18:13:00.000+07:00

wah saya di tag mbak andooon (addina faizati) :D:D

1. Anda rasa anda hot?
yakin lebih hot lapangan basket sekolah saya lah :P

2. Upload gambar kesayangan anda!

3. Kenape anda suka gambar ini?
miss my sophomore :} x8 haha kita lagi self timer gitu, eh akunya maju ke depan, trus ke shot -- jadi deh mukaku setengah doang :| eh g nyampe stengah ding hahaha

4. Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza?
sebelum puasa kyknya, PH PH :3

5. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?
The Used - I Caught Fire :*

6. Apa yang anda buat sambil selesaikan tag ini?
ym, sotosop --"

7. Selain dari nama anda sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dengan nama ape?
saaapi, om om (yang ini jangan ditiru :|), ukhti hahahay, raaras O:-)

8. Anda seorang yang :
baik, ramah, santun, kalem HAHAHA

9. Lagu kesukaan
a lot! all american rejects's, all time low - weightless!

10. best food kesukaan anda
kebab ahahay

11. sikap yang membuatkan anda stress
tugas bertubi tubi --" deadline yg mepet2, yg ga pasti pasti aaaaaaa --a

12. Benda yang harus ada di tas anda
hahpe, dohmpet, karet rambut!

13. Fav Color
turqouise, ijoh, merah!

14. Tag lagi 6 orang (terserah kalian mau post ato enggak :D)

della pidanti nareswari
carkultera wage sae
febranneva eleazar
riris anindhita
izza k afrizaaal
adnina hariningrum

soal tambahan:

15. Keinginan yang belum tercapai :
banyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak :3

16. Kamu pingin tinggal di mana :
PERANCISSSSS :D

blaaah

awck

2009-09-06T21:20:00.000+07:00

I've got my Ramadhan's spirit back :}
thanks god&&thanks to you, aha

hellyea yeah.

quranku berkarat
di rak itu
ya, disebelah kanan itu
bersampul hijau lusuh tak terjamah
melengos

quranku berkarat
ada air merembes
jelas terabaikan
diserang debu
digigit bakteri
dimakan waktu
terkoyak iman palsu

quranku berkarat
dilupa
tengah meringis
tergerogoti zaman
ditengah bulan ramadhan

dissaa; ramadhan, full moon

iseng iseng dapet ide :]

blah

saya suka sanlat sma 1

2009-09-03T04:47:00.000+07:00

tidak seperti yang dibayangkan. pesantrennya bebas banget :3
ada kajian2 gitu sih, tapi bisa main juga. begadang oke oke aja tuh
yang mau tadarus ya tadarus, yang mau uno an yaa uno an haha

saya kangen sinheart, poker, uno <3

blah

buzz

2009-08-31T22:49:00.000+07:00

buzz
buzz
buzz
buzz
buzz
buzz
buzz
buzz

don't you ever dare to pretend that I'm fine

stuck&struck&sucks

blah

hellyeah

2009-08-26T06:04:00.000+07:00

no pain, no gain

i don't know about the ending. i don't even want to know. seems like i want it to be like this. don't know how long, and how hurt it would be. i've prepared the drug, now just walk.
im fifteen and in a dizziness. im fifteen and just started my highschool journey back. im fifteen and there's still a lot to do out there. im fifteen and i want to learn. this is one of my way to. we should taste the pain, to gain a learning, to be better.
nothing to loose hahaha

blah

as ramadhan goes by

2009-08-24T12:00:00.000+07:00

hello.
HAPPY FASTING :)

now it's been 3 days of ramadhan. 3 days of keeping the emotion and hunger

1st day of ramadhan. I spent it all alone zzzz the buka puasa, the tarweh hemmmm. that saturday, what i've been doing is just go to the school doing the 'penerimaan anggota baru'. accompanied the 10th grader to do their booklet.

"dis, how about we do the once year buber today?'

"well idk, guess no. monday better"

i thought that 1st day of buka puasa should be with our family. cause later, there's must be much of other buber rite?

well then, i went home and got my body so tired aand sleepy. and actually my parents would go to my cousin's health-celebration (idk what's the word :B). well im so sleepy and i want to get sleep cause i want to goo to the tarweh with the eyes open -and to not got mad because it takes so loooong time- hm. and so they left me.

so there i am. sleep until adzan maghrib. turn on the Tv and eat all alone. hm yeah i felt pathetic for a second, but i just pretend to be okay and it's work :D then i do the maghrib and board off my house to do the tarweh.

im kind of proud of myself that i can through the day alone. and my tarweh's pray was more, idk, more relaxing.

thanks for the 1st day of ramadhan, actually.

blah

kubah

2009-08-19T21:11:00.000+07:00

again&again. on the top of the mosque; the al uswah

we're not skipping class. there's no class yeah

me; hera; sri; shinta; tomo; yoga; ardiben; izaaaan

blaah

11

2009-08-19T20:14:00.000+07:00

lama nggak posting -____________-
ya ya ya. saya sekarang sudah kelas 11 loh. udah 3 bulanan lah jadi senior nomer dua di sekolah.
saya sekarang juga sudah di kelas 11 ipa 7. bukan di 10.8 lagi :
prtamanya masuk ipa 7, ak smpet mati gaya ngliat orang2nya yg alim2 gitu. sempet ngiri juga sama kelas lain yg anakny rame2 dan udah kliatan kompak. smpet sih ngerasa garing gitu di kelas. smpet juga sm temen2 eks 10.8, menggerundel kenapa harus cepet2 kelas 11, soalnya di kelas gada bolonya hem hem.

semalam sebelum tujuh belasan;

sempet hopeless sih sama kelasku. mau gerak jalan pake kostum apa whatsoever lah. ak pribadi nggak gitu ngurus. siapa yang ikut lomba oyeah juga so what. aslinya sih niat nggak dateng. sampaaaai gayuh, ketua kelas kita sms apa kostum tujuh belasannya. hmm mau nggak mau aku jadi ikutan rewo. ngjak temen2 ikut lah. mnjem kostum blablabla

pagi hari, tujuh belasan;

upacara bndera. habis itu rewo ganti baju&ngajakin anak2 buat ikut gerak jalan. msalahnya, kbnyakan anak2 pada jadi panitia tujuhbelasan hemmmmmm

terik, gerak jalan;

dengan modal kostum seadanya, kita gerak jalan deh. sekitar 12an orang yg ikut zzzz dikit lah. tapi untung kita puny yel-yel yang oke. trus nemuin nama kelas yg asik: MAS PAIDJO haha apasih.

semakin terik, ditengah gerak jalan;

tiap kelas baris urut buat gerak jalannya. ipa 7 dibelakang ipa 6: SI PAINEM. nggak ngrti gimana, tau2 kita udah saling ejek2an kelas gitu :)) bercanda smbil ketawa2. fun banget lah. tiba2 aja kita kompak nyanyiin yel yel kelas haha

hmmm, trnyata lumayanlah kelasku. ipa 7 rocks. mas paidjoooo, hey jogoo! ROFLMFAO
setahun aku bakalan di ipa 7.

semoga menyenangkan :)

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expression

2009-07-25T23:37:00.000+07:00

strucksurd

currently listening to: ALL AMERICAN REJECTS - IT'S ENDS TONIGHT

hey bloggstey! so long that i've been absent from this blog thingie. HAHA
i don't have any idea why i just want to write this night. it's almost 12 at night but whatsoever, LMAO. all I wanna do is just write. hmmmmm
well write may one of my way to express what i think and feel. maybe not one of but only :
honestly, im a kind of an i n t ro v e r t person. i can't tell everybody about my private things. though she or he is my best best friend. i don't know. im a typical of person that hard to believe and give trust to the others. if i told a secret. so it will be just for some people. and some people that i know. that i really know. writing may helps a lot. i can express without saying the true words, the real word or what.
yeah i'm not the one that 'emotionless', 'flat' or some kind like that. if my friends told me a funny joke, i would laugh, laughed out loud. if talking about those humour things, im not in a dfficulty. i'm comfort wif my friend, my school, and we laugh together.
but if y talk about kinds like anger, disappointment, or what........................

" i would rather zip up my mouth and lock it."

i cn't express my true anger clearly. though i was very angry and really cruel inside, what i finally do is just crying alone and felt pathetic by my self. even if i was re-told it to my friend. i will just re-told it with flat emotion. so it's like i'm forgetting the mistake and problems. though for true, i'm not. i was never cried front of my friend. i just burried it for myself. so miserable zzzzzzz so on wif my disappointment expression. i will just being silent and then not energical as usual. just that. no cries. no anger. just yelled............
and last, for love thingie. hmmmmmmmmmm. i'm so complicated in this one. people often called me irresponsive. unrespct. flat one. emotionless or else zzzzzz actually i just don't know how to express -________- but sometimes i just felt like, yeah im comfort with myself. i'm happy with my expression. so what. but other time, i felt so miserable and regretful : and more pathetic that i don't have any bravery to told my friend about this. even just some. i just always rather play safe than doing all extreme. hmme
it's now more than 12 o'clock. i just stare at the LCD and think about this expression emotion thingie. it is right or wrong. hm im still an 11th grader. so why do i have to think? im still young and i just need to continue my life as i like. AAAAAAAAAAAA DON'T KNOW. what the hell yeah

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remembering summerswing :)

2009-07-25T23:11:00.000+07:00

welcome to the VVVVVVVVIP row :p

haha my sweaty hair :B

i'm wif the peace sign!

i don't know. this night i just got remember to the Summerswing. i just love this event haha well, after those cynical thingie from the alumnus, then those kind of protest from some students, those bad misunderstanding wif another program, almost-boycott, and tons of another 'candy' memories.
first thing we discussed about for this event is just how to make it different, how to make it WOW, and how to give the outsiders another view about our school. that besides those science club, religion club, we still have this, an appreciation for music and art. we just want to show that 'hey, we also have this side'. that's my point of view. first, it just go on so good. all of us were so onfire. we're so excited, to began a new revolution and make people see, the another side.
till it's in the middle. meeting by meeting. discussion by discussion. there's no conclusion on evry of our meeting. it's just filled up by laughing or out of topic things. we're not working together. no feeling. we're not onfire again. we yelled. we talk bad things we don't know. we just unsatisfied and wooried. while another program seems so great, and just work as it used to, we just felt so small. we're very bonded from the outside but empty in the inside. LOL
but lucky us, in the end. very end. in the D Day................ I felt so onfire. two days before the Day, I was totally sickkkkk. totally. I'm on the bed all the time. listen to the slow song, tried to sleep well, so i would have some energy. felt dizzy. coughing. vommit. zzzzz. im just so scared that i wouldn't get into the Day. i just want it so badly. so i ate everything. i drank hot tea, ate those veggies and fruits blablabla. and voila for God sake. thanks. in the Day and D-1 i can attend this event and work as the best as i can :)
although aftr SS 09 was held, there is some, hmm i mean many comments. i don't feel sad. i just like this event. though there're some subjective bad comments from other school or what. i just feel whatever. there're some good comments too, i mean. it's our first time and i thinks we should be focus on the good cmmnts, to move us on. and for the bad ones, that's just for correction and we'd better stay cool than respond it on. just waste the time and energy :p peace all. thnks fr yer respond, but see it again and take a look at yer mirror.
last, i just want to say thanks for all of the crew. thnks fr the mmries anyway. you're all doin' great. and i love my school. and gogogo for 2009.
loveyall
xoxo

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HOLIDAY ENDS :|

2009-07-11T17:59:00.000+07:00

IT'S SATURDAY AND I WANT MORE HOLIDAY, HOLI-LAZY-DAY
kemaren kok tidak serasa liburan : padahal ak juga ke bandung, jalan2, shop-a-hopping, berwisata kuliner sampai naik 5 kilo, trus ke bogor main k tmpat sodara blablabla sounds like holiday but i don't feel it at all. @ bdg i feel like i just accompanied my mom to look and find what she needs. and find some jeans for my sister. actually i bought some too but not as much as my mom's and sist's. im a bit tired of following her through round the mall zzz and im not relax because of summerswing is D-10 that time. I feel so irresponsible. Though my body is @ bdg but my mind was escaped away to jogja :
then, it became worse when I just when into the soekarno-hatta airport from bogor. I really want to go home immediately. jam 2,45 ak abis dr rumah makan gitu abis ngrayain ultah bude. langsung maunya k terminal ambil jurusan bogor ke soekarno-hatta airport. eh baru bbrapa menit dr bogor, trnyata MACET BEUT -_________- akhrnya diputuskan naik mobil aja k SH airportnya, biar cepet. dikiranya nyampe tol udah bakal sepi. EH TETEP RAME. mobil udah siput mode-on. gabisa gerak zzzz
milih antara tol grogol atau tanjung priok. krn deket, we chose grogol. okedets kita jalani dgn tabah. eh trnyata nyampe apa itu deket gelora bung karno tetep aja jalannya seret banget maaaaaaan. waktu mulai nunjukkin jam 4an padahal pesawat take off 5,40 (MASIH INGET BANGET). siaaaaaal. mana ibu adik jdi ikutan ngnter k jkt. pdhal yg brgkt cm aku bapak (dgn mksut mmpercepat kepulangan). ksian bgt mereka, ad 2 sepupuku juga yg ngnter, melas kesian. di tengah macet, kita nyalain radio, eh trnyata ADA KAMPANYE SBY : ha terang aja macet, tanpa makan minum kita brtahan di mobil, sengsara. akhrny psawat g mungkn kekejar. it's canceled. uang melayang :''''''''(
parahnya ak keancam gbisa balik secara smua psawat udah penuh. bapak sibuk telpon2 ngedapetin tiket psawat. ak yg tdi masih seneng2 aja lgsg diem degdegan abieZET. gila klo gbisa pulang gmana dong, njuk pie, ak pgen ikut TT ikt summerswing edan wae g kerja, batinku. hoooosh. akhrnya dpet tiket balik, phew. trus abis mkan di mall antah berantah, ak cari hotel dan nginep di jkt, ibu adk sepupu balik k bogor. what the ngiwut banget.
hmmmeeh untung bgt dpet psawat pagi, jdi lgsg bisa k skolah dan see how is TT :B
tidak terasa liburan -.- aftr tht i've to go back gor uny-house. there's rapat akbar blablabla and then h-2 aku sakit : tepar di rumah hmbi banget. abis itu summerswing. abis SS tidur terusssss. my god senin udah masuk. NGIK NGOOOKS

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rubbish

2009-07-11T17:50:00.000+07:00

so so so hard to believe, and so hard to be brave. to just hit the lights and stand up when you fall off the ground. hmf ngik ngok. whatever just trying to forget it (at least for a while)
ngeheeeek.

I've been trying a thousand times

To let you know

To let you go

But the phone is dead

I can't reach you

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transformer and the day <3

2009-06-29T11:47:00.000+07:00

love this movie awr haha but i think the transformer 1 is more enjoyable and good to watch rather than the revenge of the fallen. but, actually both of them are REALLY WORTH TO WATCH. talking about the visual effect, oh my it's really crazy and so damn smooth. I love the plane port part, shit it's so awesome hahaha and then the part when the college girl becoming a robot, it's so unpredictable and just great.

fyi, I just watched this movie wif my bestfriend, ririe on the premiere day <3
lgsg berangkt dr sekolah jam 12an gt abis remed. actually pagi2nya aku udah kaget gitu kok bnyak bgt ank2 yg udah packing + ada bis di skolah. I thought that it was the D-day of PTB (perkemahan teladan bakti). sial banget, trnyata itu ank2 perkap + konsum yg mau bngun tenda. wif folio scrap in my hand, lgsg ajadeh k ruang guru buat nyelesain remed tertunda akibat absen 2 hari -_____- after the remedial(s) Im in a hurry cari2 list barang bawaan buat PTB. gile ak aja baru tau klo besoknya adalah hari H wkt hari itu juga. parah bgt deh z. lucky me, PTB itu lebih kyk KKN dbanding kemah SD SMP yg bawa patok tali etc etc. kita tinggal bw badan makan baju trus ngikutin termin yg udah drencanain buat bakti :D lumayan nyantai lah preparingnya.

okay, back to the transformer thingie. wif highschool uniform, I went to xxi in a rush dan liat antrean yg kyk ular melingkar di pagar pak umar, gile panjang behut. udah hopeless gtu deh. mana tau2 pas mau k pintu ada mas2 yg bilang 'ngapain masuk mbak, udah abis tiketnya!', zeeet males bgt deh. take it easy, kita brdua udah prepare kalo2 emg tiket udah abis kita mau ntn terminator salvation. yaudah kita ngantri aja dgn tabah smbil lirak lirik cari knalan gt siapa tau bisa ttip tiket :D eh what a luck, kita cuman ngantri 15-20 mnitan lgsg dapet seat yg lumayan oke, di K <3 kewl huh?

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junk

2009-06-16T21:38:00.000+07:00

unlike another day

you see me strange
different pupils way
I'm puzzled
You said you loved me
And I kind of believe that
I'm puzzled
I'm puzzled

the song 'last words' keep round in my head, yeah
just another after-exam effect

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satnation, remembering sunday

2009-06-13T23:08:00.000+07:00

whoa oh
lagi - lagi ak ngedengerin remembering sundaynya all time low, again and again deh hahaha know what? lagunya bagus banget deh even tthough sbenernya nggak ngerti apasih maksud lriknya, raceto beeng :p aku dapet nih lagu dari temenku. inget sih masihan, jaman2 fs itu zz ak buka profilnya dia trus 'about me'nya ada playlist gitu nah trus ak iseng2 download beberapa lagu di playlist itudeh, termasuk remembering sunday ini. akhirnya aku sukses ngedownload lagu2 itu trus ak dengerin deh, bagus bagus men. padahal actually waktu itu ak nggak kenal gitu sama dianya. siapa kira deh ternyata dia temennya temenku, haha dunia sempit cung. nah pas dia nyaranin buat ngdownload bbrapa lagu itu, ak baru nyadar klo itu dari playlistnya dia wkt itu haha such a weird thing. whoaaaaaa lagunya bagusss yeah. dari gitar pertama tuh serasa menohok haha lagunya bikin emosi beeng meeen, sedih gitu.
hey ya akhirnya ak satnation juga nih - saturday night hibernation - hahahaha asik, bisa tidur2an lepi2an ndengerin lagu blablabla deh. apalagi bsok senin masih ulum jadi saatnation is the only one pleasure deh, ROFL. duh, wish me luck buat exam result deh yaaaa :|

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ulum ke laut aja

2009-06-13T15:03:00.000+07:00

listening to : the dead 60's - riot radio

hahahaha h-2 selesai ulum nih. and also, it's saturdaaay! like this deeeeh :D
berasa udah nggak ulum lagi, yang mipa udah lewat (duh gaya bener). hem tapi sebenernya aku rada ngeri juga sih sama semesteran kali ini. walaupun rata2 aku begadang terus, (wkt matika tidur jam 1, biologi jam 1, kimia setengah 2, fisika jam 1) aku ngerasa nggak maksi. emang sih aku SKS gitu, belajar pas ujian doang ergk. aaaah ngeri ah ah ah zzz apalagi pas kiimia gitu ak gangerti banget kimia, ngak bakat zzzzz
hem tapi udahlah, udah berlalu, hasil so what tinggal tawakal doang ini -______- skrg kaingkaing ajadeh krik krik krik. gila semesterannya the worst exam i've ever had deh zz
huhuhu h-2 selese ulum ini ak ngrasa mndingan pasrah aja njuk nonton film ngeplurk apa kek gitu ah, semesteran ke laut aja aseeeeeeem... teloooo ah

semoga semesteran ini aku dikasih yang terbaik, amin

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insomnia

2009-06-02T04:25:00.000+07:00

entah ini namanya insomnia atau apalah, I woke up this early early morning. Bangun pake kram kaki segala pula --" (BTW I can handle this cramp matter loh, udah biasa z). Jam 4an gitudeh, padahal aku tidur sekitar jam setengah dua belasan malem buat ngelembur deadline majalah sekolah. Hmmffff, I woke up and the computer still turning on, perfectly. Hmme global warming banget ga sih, dengan lampu menyala aku tidur dengan enaknya zzzz whoa ibu maafkan saya sudah berpartisipasi membengkakan tagihan rumahmu. Aku juga tidurnya jelek banget, pake kardigan :| So, mengapa saya bisa tidur dengan situasi ini? z. Jadi tadi malem ak les bahasa inggris gitu, nyampe jam 8an lah. Eh eh guruku yang asli native itu tau tau cerita all about the ghost she has ever seen. Gara garanya temenku nanya ke miss yang umurnya masih 21 itu, 'My friend told me that you've ever seen a ghost', ya mulai deh. Sial banget deh padahal ak mau lembur nyampe malem. Yaudah akhirnya ak putusin buat make komputer yang di bawah, yang terletak di kamar pojok rumahku, It's quite safe and cozy there. Meski bukan kamar tidurku lagi, tapi aku udaah klop gitu sama auranya hahaha
Ya, ak nulis artikel lama gitu kan di kompie, biasa lah, disambi dengan beberapa situs tambahan hihi. Tapi malem kemarin cukup konsen ke tugasnya kok, jadi bisa selesai \m/. Jam sebelasan gitu ak keluar kamar mau tidur. Asemnya semua lampu udah dimatiin kecuali kamar tadi, jadi deh dengan bumbu cerita pas ghost story session tadi, ak otomatis balik ke kamar kerja tadi. Phew sambil terus think positive, ak sok sokan online aja, biar back to reality gitu ceritanya. Kalo ak udah mulai takut gitu, ak biasanya dengerin lagu dance/hip-hop/jazz atau apalah yang manusia banget dan jauh dari makhluk2 begitu. Buka plurk juga bikin ga takut karena banyak temen2 yang ngepost thread gamutu bikin ngakak deh.
Hoh dari kemaren deh, pasti tidur jam stgh 12an mulu. Emang tugas akhir semester gada ujungnya, banyak banget. Mungkin ini alesan aku dibangunin jam 4 kali ya, biar bisa ngerjain tugasku yang lain. Pertamanya bangun sih kaget takut gitu, tapi abis itu denger suara adzan kok kyk aman gitu ya. Ini kyk wake up call aja, keren banget deh, apallagi inget kalo ntar itu olahraga jam ke nol, atau musti nyampe sekolah jam setengah 7. What a big luck deh buatku.
My lucky insomnia hahaha

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bigger window : the net

2009-05-26T17:49:00.001+07:00

currently listening to : the SIGIT- new generation

snap snap snaaaaaaaaaaap!
ceritanya nih kemarin Sabtu ak satnite sambil nonton the SIGIT gitu. pdahal aslinya sih mau nonton acara jazz fest gitu, tp karena kbetulan mb med mau nebengin, yaaa aku milih ntn sigit aja hahahaha lagipula ak jg lg pgen jingkrak2 :3
waktu pas udah nyampe venue, ada yang menarik tuh. begitu masuk abis di cap, ak masuk jalan keliling2 gitu bareng mb med kakak klasku gitu. nah disitu ak ngerasa rada aneh aja. gatau kenapa ak ngerasa familiar sama org2 yang ada dsana. semacam 'weh, inikan ini', 'loh, kyknya ak pernah liat deh' dan blablabla. banyak banget deh, selain emg org yang aku kenal langsung, banyak banget deh muka - muka familiar di kanan kiri. padahal ya, klalo dipikir Kridosono kan gede juga zzz
well, ternyata kakak kelasku itu jg ngerasain hal yang sama. abis dipikir2, wajar aja lah kalo ternyata kita kenal tampang2 tadi. bukan karena emang ngeksis naudubilah atau sok bereksis atau gimana. tapi simple aja, because of : facebook -______- ga ngerti juga, ini bisa dibilang efek bagus apa buruk. karena akunya yang krg krjaan nginget2 temen fesbuk apa orang jogja itu itu doang bzz yang jelas ak ngerasa inilah pngaruh dunia maya gitu (ceilah).
kalo pndapatku sndiri sih, efek bagusnya adalah yaa kita jadi bisa tmbah kenal bnyak orang gitu dan tau apa aja yg lagi happening, secra kan skrg bukan buku doang yang jndela dunia. kalo buku jendela, si internet mah udah jelas gerbangnya gitchu (lebih gede critanya). jadi yaa, kita jdi tau bnyak hal trmasuk orang2 itu tadi. cntohnya aja nih, kmrn tmenku crita 'eh tdi brusan aja ak knalan lgsg sama *si A*, pdahal di FB udah wall2an sok ngakrab gitu'. nah ini yg ak mksud mmperbanyak tmen gitu. selain emg mengakrabkan kenalan hem hem hem
buruknya nih, ga semua orang mau nyapa atau kenalan 'beneran' sm org di dunia maya tadi. padahal maybe aja di dunia online itu tadi ud sok berakarab ria seakan teman lama. jadi yaa, cntohnya sih ak sndiri, udah sok sok berwall gitu, tp pas ketemu diem aja. emang sih, butuh kbranian buat nyapa duluan apa gimana. tpi kan aneh gitu yaa, sok kenal gitudeh kesannya zzz tp emg kyk yg prnah dbahas di koran2, kalo di Indo msih mnding banget, dimana prtemanan di the net itu bsa dlanjutin di dunia asli. yg dtakutin kn sbenernya : orang2 jadi autis sm dunia sekitar gara2 stuck online doang. jadi intensitas ketemu atau interaksi 'nyata' jadi brkurang gtu gara2 keasikan oh-el. hemm
tp emg net net world itu ud gabisa dipisahin lagi kali ya dari hdup kt sekarang. mulai FS>FB>twitter/plurk/myspace/blog/multiply/ym/msn/mxit blablabla pasti ud prnah kta coba kan? gila deh emang. bru bbrapa taun ada udah bkin perubahan yg segitu gedenya. apalagi situs2 diatas gitu udah ada saluran mobilenya. makin gmpang ngakses ajadeh. jadi bnyak orang yg sok ngeksis dan bangga bngt bisa eksis di net net world, pdahal di dunia nyata autis gitu, mngkin ini yg dtakutin media kali ya, hmmmmeee

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four-o-rama

2009-05-19T22:58:00.000+07:00

FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
Dis, Sapi, Dissa, Gundul, Lambe ergh

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
30 maret pentiiing banget! 20 juni kece 8 juni 23 MEI 2009

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
blog, ngerjain kimia, nggrundel, ngeplurk

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
listening music! jump, ride my grandpa's old bike <3

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
teman seperjuangan dulu, my design teacher LOL

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
macbook, slr, cellphone, mentahan juga oke :D

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES (CURRENTLY):
capturing picture, doodling, main sobyong, listen to music

FOUR PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
bali! hawaii! NYC japaaaaan

FOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
frestea greentea yeah

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
dompet, hape, flashdisk, karet rambut

FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:
blue yell-o red green

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS:
nowhere with my friends

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH:
ortu keluarga temen lomo!

TOP FOUR ASIAN ACTORS:
radooong

FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
my blog sotosop my lomo HANDPHONE

FOUR FAVOURITE "UNUSUAL" SONGS:
she and him - why do you let me stay here, the sigit - save me <3

FOUR EVENTS YOU WILL NEVER FORGET:
birthday, yesterday, last friday :)), tomorrow

FOUR THINGS YOU OFTEN DID WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
doodling, reading, riding bike then get fall hahaha, refuse to eat! yeay

TOP FOUR WHO YOU WANT TO ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
mas izza deh, shuluuuuh hahaha!

TOP FOUR REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
gada kerjaan maaaan :p

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ignorable

2009-05-19T22:07:00.000+07:00

currently listening to : SID feat Shaggy Dog - Jika Kami Bersama

yeah yeah yeah, basi sih aku baru suka sekarang sama tuh lagu -.- lagunya bagus trnyata haha kalo ngedengerin jadi mbayangin kekompakan gitu. yang bener2 brotherhood sejati gitu deh, kumpul bareng2, berjuang sama sama, seru2an bareng, bebas dan lain lain zzzzzzzz
daaaaaaaan itu sangat menohok ya, in my status quo right now, rasanya pengen banget rewind ke masa masa ak di kepanitiaan umum awal tahun lalu. pengen banget, ak bilang. dulu kayaknya seru, ngefeel banget deh pokoknya asik.
di semester dua ini ak included in suatu program umum yang ak pikir seru banget. I think it'll gonna be the most challenging, exciting , interesting organization. I looked from the people included there, they were seems so cool and fun. We made this great concept, this goood title and tagline and blablabla. I was so happy to be part of it, in case I was ffelt a bit unignorable there. I tried and tried to built my confidencies, to spoke up what is my idea, though I never felt so comfortable there, I tried to be. Because of why? Because I was loving this event so much.
Till I can't be able to keep this boredom, this shit-evil-thoughts to be locked in my own heart anymore. I was freaking out. I felt I'm invisible. In every forum they made. I hate this feeling, this rubbish situation. Maybe I'm too immature and egoistic to face this. Yes I'm over react, just a big load of rubbish that can't do anything. But here, I have this spirit, I have this hope for this things. Hm but yeah I don't even know whether I still have those spirit z. And I do the efforts. I do my job, ladies and gentlemaaaaan. Hey guys, yeah I'm a sophomore, I'm a rookie. I'm nnnot as great as my partner that included in those what is that school org or what. But hey please, I want to be visible in your eyes. I want to speak up an hear what's the newest matter from this event. Yes sir I'm a rookie but I had this big vision spinning in my head. Huh scheiss. Yeah maybe I'm too hyperbolic in here, but heeeey this is just my opinion and this is what I've felt.
Beside this rude cruel smothering matter, I've finally found my own world. Where I can speak up and show my idea. Where there people noticed what I've said. And where I can make my own great team and build our case together. Thanks God for giving me this little oase inside the huge silly dessert z.

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*bad english, haha so what

hey there

2009-05-05T21:57:00.000+07:00

hey there, vision-mate
I miss all of our dream
when we stared out together
our plan for the future
and our chit chat about this complicated life

hey there, laugh-mate
where you've been
may you don't even care about me
about all the castle we've built inside our brain

now we're the different person
we're go strike the through with our own ways
you with yours
and me with mine

you hate the rule, you break it
I hate the rule, I do it
I try to be this acceptable
may now I'm going to be naive, being this fake

you groan all the time
I scream out loud
then I try to harmonizing every different mosaic
every another aspect we crash
where're you my dear fellas?
you don't even remind me when I'm losing out this thought
you hang me on this matter, alone

dear you, I miss you and all of our big kite on the sky

blah z

not a sunmorning lol

2009-05-04T13:18:00.000+07:00

yeah it's holiday time again and again \m/ pun bsok bkal ada hri kjepit, jumat, so whaat lah. yg pnting ada libur. haha.
nah, last sunday I went to the sunmor at ugm. okay, don't call it sunmor because I went there from Adis's home at 9 am and the sun was super duper bright!

1. Adis's HooomeAdis is my neighbor. Ini ceritanya krg krjaan njuk moto2 gajelas zz I captured this, kyk debu2 gt yg kna sinar matahari, ceilah. Nah yaaa, ak yg prtama nyampe rmah dia loh, j stgh 7an \m/

2. Parking Area
abis nunggu lama be-eng di rumah adis, kita nyampe juga k sunmor yg masih rame. smbil nunggu si Yoga dtg + Tomo k kmar mandi, kita trial foto2 gtu di tmpat parkir, ngetes2 dll gajelas pk kameranya lala. everybody were moaned and groaned about the sun that day zz panaas bgt --" mana lama pula tuh 2 org dtg

3. EATyeaaaay! we finally eat eat. stelah g kuat nahan laper, kita nemuin ini warung tenda biru, ceileh. mygoood, ak kyk ank ilang gt. korban self-timer hrrr. scara ak yg nytel gt yaa, njuk g ready to be picted -.-

4. Sing!biasanya klo d sunmor kan ad org2 yg ngamen gt, kbanyakan bences gt. nah klo yg kyk gni ak blm prnah ddtengin. scara kmrn kbanyakn big group gini ngeskip kta, tkut g dksi duit kali ya, scara kita remaja kere look-a-like -_______-

5. Splashing money!
abis kenyang, kita jalan ngalor-ngidul gt. tau2 nemu pdagang kaki lima gt, jual gelang inkubator apalah namanya itu with plenty plenty of coloooours (yg sbnernya ud pasaran beut)! singkat cerita kt smua ud beli, tinggal tomo yg lamaaaaa-a-a beut milih2nya, seabad sndiri deh. hrganya 2rban gt, njuk kita tawar 5rb 3, apa bdanya coba? hem

6. HEY SNAKE!with camera in hand, we entered the campus field. nah dket situ ada skumpulan org gt bawa ular. their size were sooo big! vivin sm adis sok nyoba2 megang gt, tp mreka malah geli sndiri, kyk bantal dngin gtu sih zz FYI ularnya it mreka pelihara + dtemuin sndiri hlo z

7. Meet the Eden

aduh lebay ya judulnya hehehe tp emang spotnya gahul beut. dngin gt, brasa di cool foreign country gt zzz trus tmpatnya mnurutk timeless, brasa jadul dsana. mana kmrn lg g bnyak orang lewat, puas self timer hahahaha :B

8. LEAAAVEjam 12an gt kita balik deeeeeeeh. tapi tujuan utama unacomplished : cari semacam stroberi yg dikasih coklat2 itu, apa itu namanya :B

okaaaay, then ak nonton case of benjamin buttonnya brad pitt gt d rumah adis. pulang j 5 -.-
what a

blah

BETTER?

2009-04-28T19:40:00.000+07:00

aloha!
sekedar infoooo, tdi ak abis ikut eksplanasi GVT '09 (smacam kepanitiaan buat MOS taun ajaran baru). di eksplanasi itu, panitia dwajibin pake atribut yg diharuskan, kyk pantofel sm emblem gt, baju msti dkancing pake sabuk blah blah blah. trus klo gapake prlengkapan kyk gt bakal dpet konsekuensi, scara tiap masuk aula ntar di cek sm CCnya zzz prtama ak mikir 'duh ribet banget apaan sih', tp lama2 kpikiran juga sih, di MOS kan buat ngebina adk kelas jd msti jadi teladan yg baik gitu, ceileh. perasaan excited sama ogah jadi satu. excited liat prosesny dan pgen tau juga (scara taun lalu ak yg di-GVT-in, bukan yg meng-GVT-in) bakal kyk apa , apalagi skrg ak jd Sie BaSing - Bahasa Asing, yg emg ak pgen dr masuk SMA. ogah, males bawa atribut : alat alat ribut dan pulang soreeee, bueh.
akhirnyaa, ak ikut tuh eksplanasi. mulai deh cari atribut2 : bajuku yg biasanya kluar, rapi dibalik sabuk; kerudungk yg kmana2, jdi rapi, dan sopaaaan bgt; sepatuku yg talinya g prnah bner trgantikan dgn pantofel yg gpernah kupake; nggak lupa kancing smua ak kancingin; buset deh. pas pelajaran ke 7 gitu, plajaran fisika bu endaang, ak ijin kluar sm ririe. trus ak k kmar mandi buat 'berubah'. kmbali ke kelas, ak sndirian soalny ririe dsuruh k aula. ak izin masuk sm bu endang, njuk lgsung duduk d bangkuku di pojok paling blakang. pas ak masuk gitu, lgsg trdengar suara 'woh woh woh' 'buseeet' 'ckckck' dll smacamnya --' ak trus duduk dg tampang cengengesan innocent sama pnampilan baru. sekelas noleh k belakang bok, tmen ak monita aja bibirnya smpe brbrntuk 'O'. prima hana vivin ngedip ngedip mata. kliatannya ok lebay ya ak -________-

ki: hari2 biasa \m/ ; ka: buseeet 0:)

Smakin dket k jam - jam eksplanasi, mkin bnyak tampilan2 ajaib kyk diatas td. tp plg lebay emg ak sih. ah dbanding kena konsekuensi suruh push up zz temen2k pd cengengesan liat bntuk satu sama lain yg once every year gitu. walaupun ad jg yg pake tampilan gitu a whole year. bahaha moral d skolah emang ga rata gitu, n-j-e-g-l-e-k. ad yg okeee bgt, ad yg 'ya gitu' :D

singkat cerita, ak pulang k rumah. ak pikir ibuku bkal kaget gitu. eh trnyata malah diem dan bilang 'wah, bagus gini km dis, lebih rapi'. BLAAAR! hm hm tp kdg2 ak mikir sih, klo ak tiap hari gni gmana ya? kan mnuju arah lebih baik, hem

blah

Introvert?

2009-04-27T17:46:00.000+07:00

Snapsnapsnaaaaaaap!
Belakaangan ini, ak inget, kalo ada beberapa temen dan sanak keluarga (halah) yg bilang klo ak itu tertutup zz ak jg akhir - akhir ini baru nyadar z gatau kenapa, emg ak lbih suka ndengerin orang lain dbanding cerita soal ak sndiri -______- paling2 ak jg kalo crita soal orang lain. dan juga ak ngrasa buat apa ak cerita k orang lain, toh yg ak ceritain pasti punya masalah yg lebih wow dan lebih penting juga daripada eke. nah, efek bagusny sih klo mnurutku ak bisa bner2 jaga rahasiaku sndiri, tp yaaa yang g seru itu, jdi depresi raceto sndiri klo lg ad masalah. skrg sih ak lebih berusaha trbuka gtu, yaa cerita2 dikit lah, biar ngurangin beban wawe, ceileh

blah

just my opinion :p

2009-04-24T16:41:00.000+07:00

hey fellaaas :)
lama banget nih ak g update blooog. padahal liburan, hrusnya bbisa meng-entry banyak ya padahal, whooaaaa
okaaaay, mengungkit postingan jaman kapan yang bertitel 'freaky', I wanna say sorry buat yang ngerasa diomongin. hemm tapi itu cuma opiniku loh temen - temen. kalo kalian merasa opini itu salah, yaaa Es tut mir Leid -- Iam sorry. ak jg bakal lbih ati2 deh klo nulis ehehe tp sekali lagi itu cuman pndapat ak aja locccc. awkaaaaaay? peaaace V
updaaate :

temen ak yg lmbar MTKnya pas mid dulu cm dtulis nama itu skrg udah pndah sekolah --____--, buat alesannya kalian bisa klik di sini! nah koreksi kawan - kawan, trnyata dulu dia nggak ngisi blas lembar jawabnya karena dia lgi bener2 gaenak badan, tapi dipaksain masuk gitu, jadi dia lemes dan tiduran. dia udah pndah sekitar sebulan / duabulanan yang lalu gitu uhuk
klo si X, ak skrg jg jarang ngeliat dia. cm lebih sering dbanding pas ak trakir nulis postingan itu zz eyaaaa, buat yg merasa, ayo main brg lagi udah jarang beut loh mbak :p
si Y itu skrg udah mulai kerasan di sekolah haha good good :)) udah aktif lagi meeeeen yeaaahh
mas yg study oriented itu masih study oriented dan kyknya gabakal berubah, tapi mnurutku dia keren bgt soalny ud punya tujuan hdup yg jelas and he chase it effortly

okaaaaay, itu tadi update nasib temen - temen yg ak tulis di postingan hell itu haha

blah

Get to Know Yourself Better

2009-04-20T07:41:00.000+07:00

haha iseng ikut kuissssss B)

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

haha yeah that's might be me

blah

soooongs

2009-04-17T14:29:00.000+07:00

hadeh telat banget kali ya ak, hahaha gapapa --baru ini ak bener2 ngedengerin Thinking Of Younya Katy Perry zz dan artinya beuh oh so deep, apalagi kalo liat video klipnya yang walaupun rada vulgar sih tapi ngenes bgt ohnooo :'\

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What I would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
...You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

thaaaat's my picklineeee hahaha
yang di bold itu my favsssss quote

blah

Mocin and I

2009-04-09T15:40:00.000+07:00

9 April, mau ngepost soal contrengan malah jd inget ultahnya temenk si mocin haha whoa rncanany tdi pd pagi pd mau k rumahny, tp gajaadi soalny ank2 pada gabisa --" sayang sekali. Yaudah HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAAAAAAT *pantat :B

ak - melet; mocin - monyomonyo

Okaaay, mulai aja. Hemm ak kenal mocin wkt bimbel SD, tp blm kenal2 bgt, cma skedar tau aja. Ak deket sm dia ya wkt SMA ini. Mulai GVT (MOS sekolah) ak duduk brg nih bocah hmme haha sampe skrg loh men. Heya, dia puny bnyak julukan, behel, ling - ling, ladang curhat nyampe pantat segala. Whoaa, kecil - kecil (aduh dis, ngaca :|) suaranya sangar, keras banjeet hahaha apalagi klo ketawa.

Blah

Birthday Presents

2009-04-09T14:38:00.000+07:00

Yeaaah, yes. 30 March is just so long ago, but I just wanna say thanks to everybody who gave me this presents haha. Ini nih, kado yang menurutk keren bahud :))

1. Babyboss Mag;
pagi pagi, ak bngun mau k skolah. trus tau tau della ngajak ak k ruang makan, lah di trus ngasih bungkusan gtu.
Dissa: 'Weh, apa he ini?'
Della: 'Itu buku hehhe'
Dissa: 'Hemm buku apa ndul?'
Della: 'Buku tulis itu loh, big boss hahaha'
Dissa: (Tampang kecewa, smbl mbuka bungkusan)
Weeeh, babyboss hahahahaha thaaaaaanks!
*fyi dr dulu ak pngen beli, tp mnding duitny buat jajan, nabung whoa :p

2. Froggy Helmet; Nah yg ini ceritanya, si Bapak abs pulang dr Bandung. Trus ak liat bungkusan karton '*** helmet', ak pkir mah plg bw makanan ap gtu, trus dbungkus d karton itu, eh trnyata wkt Bapak nyuruh ak ngbuka, ad isinya : dua helm. Bahaha, kaget ak. Klo Della dpet yg gmbar garfield tuh, warna oreeen. FYI, tmenk Ririe jg puny, tp yg doraemon. G kbyng klo ak bncengan ma dia hmmmeee kyk duo bocil

3. Kamera gahul;

*gmbar mnyusul

Bahaaaa, ceritanya nih suatu siang ak dpanggil oleh kak Afrizal Kurniawan --'. Trus dia ngsih ak bungkusan gtu, dpannya ad tulisan 'Buat Dissa yang suka fotografi'. Hemmm, ak pkir mah foto atau ap gtu. Eh wkt ak buka isinya kamera gitchu hahaha. Itu looh, kamera yg biasanya kyk abis plg dr haji, yg kalo di 'klik' bisa ad gmbarnya. Kreatif kreatif. Kakak kelasku yg tomboy, preman abiss aja dkasih barbie ahaha eh eh kamerany tuh ad blitznya loh :))

4. MYGOOOOD;WHOAAA THIS IS IT. Yang plg ak tunggu2 sejak SMP! haha thanks ibu bapak akhrnya mau ngbliin =] kmrn wkt mreka k Jakarta, ak nitip. Smpet bngung milih ini ap fisheye. Hemm tp ak mkir klo fisheye kn d jogja ud banyak, jdi ak plih yg ini deh. FYI, harga d online ma aslinya beda 300ribuan hemm

5. LOOOVE;
Laaaaaast. Makasih buat yang ngucapin haha that's the greatest present loh kawan - kawan B)

Blah

zineees

2009-04-05T17:09:00.000+07:00

I always love magazineee! Haha From Gadis, Go girl, CG, Nylon, Vogue, T3, till Babyboss, Concept :B Lucky me, my sister even worse than me in a Magazine posession, so I don't have to buy them. Every months, she always buy one, at least. Hmm, I barely like nylon magazine phootooos, yay

Blah

Satnite haha

2009-04-05T16:46:00.000+07:00

Heyho heyho. hemm hari ini nulis banyak deeh, soalny kan minggu. ajang males malesan :pp

Okaaay, mau cerita nih. Late Saturday night, I decided to spent my time with my 2 friendss. Ceritanya kan ak dan Yoga Aditya Rachmanu pgen ngeliput clothfest buat SIGMALINE (buletin 2 bulanan majalah sekolah, beuh), eh tapi trnyata kita salah. Clothfest yg kita mksud itu bukan yg kemaren malem minggu dslenggarain, melainkan baru tgl 15-17 April mendatang gitchu. Tadinya, kita mau ngeliput bareng Afrizan Huda Nurrokhman juga, tapi berhubung salah acara, akhirnya Izan malah ngajak buat jalan2 cari baju aja. Alhasil, ujan - ujan gerimis anyep gimana gitu ak pergi deh k JEC dari Jakal (ampun jauhnya, tepospospos). Singkat cerita ak brhasil nyampe kesana then bolak balik dari satu stand ke stand yang lain. Disini, ak ngeliat tuh, bedanya cewek ma cowok dlm urusan shopping. Cewek tuh lebih bingungan gitu nyari barangnya, (kyk ak kmaren dititipin tas gitu sm adik, trus ngjelajah stand kebingungan nyari barang) lebih perfeksionis. Sementara laki, lebih nyante, g keburu - buru, window shop aja nggak maksa beli. Tapi ya kmbali lagi sih, tergantung orangnya, (btw ak jalan sm 2 makhluk lelaki cukup konsumtif yg msti ngebeli brg gityu). Pulangnya nih kan jam stgh sepuluhan, ak nebeng Yoga (secara rumahny d utara, sejalan ma ak). Tpi ternyata si Izan pgen ikut nginep d rumah yoga aja, soalny udah kemaleman dan rumah dia nun jauh di selatan, tepatnya Sedayu. Prtamanya ak kira, izan cmn bercanda, scr emg d rumah yoga lg ad sodaranya. Eh trnyata si Izan ngikutin Yoga terus. Si Y udah ngebut ngiwut kanan kiri, eh nyampe lampu merah, masih ada Izan. Terus kita offroaaad lwat jln tikus di daerah gejayan yg ribet gityuu, lama _____________ krik krik ga ada suara (wah Izan balik nih brarti, ksian tuh anak sedayu. batinku) . Tau tau ada bunyi mirip suara kuntilanak dapet suami baru meen, suara seneng abiss : 'WAHAHAHAHA', my goaaaat trnyata masih ada mas Ijan d belakang :)) Yaudah deh, akhrnya izan nginep d rumah yogeee, selamat mnikmati yog!

Blah

picturesssss

2009-04-05T15:41:00.000+07:00

I love watching lookbook.nu haha espescially, see those global style, see how people around the world wear those quirky clothes :))

united kingdom

switzerland

ukraine

greaaaat <3>

blah

Hi Fifteen :)

2009-04-04T21:56:00.000+07:00

Heyhoo. It's been so long ago since I write this blog for the las time. Where did I went? haha. MID SEMESTER you know zetzet
Hoahm, fyi beberapa hasil mid semester udah nongol dan my goat my goat, nilai midku jeblok dari semester satu kemarin. Sebenernya nggak perlu disesalin sih, secara emang usahaku minim banget apalagi di hari hari akhir pelajaran IPS :| nahlo. Nggak konsen lah, malah main ke rumah temen lah, pulang mid sore lah, dan yang paling ga sadar diri : nonton DBL di tengah mid. Dimulai Senin 2 minggu yang lalu dan barusan finish Selasa kemaren, lamanya mid berhasil bikin suntuk dan makin hari makin nggak niat (whoa parah, jangan ditiru). So, ya gitu deh nilaiku do re mi fa sol sol la la la -_______-.

But! There's a day that I loved in this whole terrible mid. MONDAY. Whoa I love monday 30 March of 2009 haha. Yap that's my birthday. And thank's facebook for telling everybody on my friend list about my birthday, so I've got those tons birthday greetings :D LOL. Although, I was smelss like an egg and a fish pond (watchout : Hana,Prima,Ririe,Novi,Yuyun,Tika :B), I felt happy. I was happy that my friends remembered my birthday :) thanks all!
Different. 180 degree. Beda banget ya, kejadian 2 minggu kemaren. mid nyebai, good birthday! Okay, maybe it was called life haha

Blah

TYT gawwwl

2009-03-26T11:12:00.000+07:00

TYT gawl? hha iya lah TYT gahul bgt
TYT itu Teladan Yelling Team haha itu buat DBL gitu, jadi kebentuknya accidentally! Jadi sbagai syarat ikut DBL, msti ada tim yel yel yaaa semacam cheers gitu. Aslinya pgen cheers standard, cewek2 gitu. Tp apa kata mbak2 ntar? haha nyolot klo tau2 ada cheersnya. Akhirnya kita bkin kyk Yelling Team, isinya cowok semua. FYI, mereka nggak mau dpanggil POM POM BOYS. So we gave it name : TELADAN YELLING TEAM. Me as a coreographer with ririe excited bgt! Trus mulai deh, kita ngumpulin, nawarin ke anak2 cowok biar mau jadi yellling team. Akhirnya ada 8 orang yang mau ikutan, ada yang ogah - ogahan, ada yang malu, tapi ada juga yang excited. H-2/3 DBL gitu, mereka barusan first meeting ma latian langsung. And WHOA, mereka semua langsung ngedong dan apal gerakannya! Padahal ak yg nyoba latian dri kmaren aja gbs zzz
H-1 aja bru beli kostum gityuuuu. Pake celana batik malioboro gitu, trus kaos item ma singlet putih di luaaar hahahaha. Akhirnyaaaa, mereka semua excited <3 style="font-weight: bold;">gabisa nonton huhuu. Soalnya besoknya mid + ak gaboleeeeh mygoaaaat. Ga seru bgt! Nah trus next performnya merekaa di hari Selasa jam 6 sore gitu. Dan lagi - lagi sialnya besok midnya malah KIMIA FISIKAA. Wah gamau bunuh diri ak. Tapi tetep aja ada temenku yg nonton. Salut bgt deeeeh!
But, talking about supporteer, ak rada sedih juga nih. Kenapa yaa, rasa kekeluargaan anak2 sekolahku tuh rada kurang. Kita tuh miskin supporter gitu lah. I miss our bond in SOLO for JINGLE DARE. Yang kita bener2 ke Solo bareng2, naik motor, mobil, mpe kereta cuman buat nyuporterin Jingle Dare yang maju kesana. Artinya apa? Artinya sebenernya kita tuh bisa kompak, bisa bener2 kayak keluarga. fufu. Pdahal ya, sebenernya pas DBL itu lmayan ada yg dateng, tapi bener2 gada kesadaran kayak 'Wah, sekolahku mau tanding nih, ak nonton ah', atau 'Eh dukung skolah kita yok! Rame2 nonton, ntar kita bikin yel yel!' yang ada juga 'Ah males ah, ntar gada yang ndukung jugaan' ataupun 'Halah, ngapain sih, paling juga kalah' atau yang paling parah 'Weh, DBL tu apa he, weh sekolah kita ikut?' zz ayo kawan kawan kita support sekolah kita! loh
tapi disisi lain I keep tryin to proud of my school lah because it's such a nice and good school

blah

Freaky!

2009-03-26T09:12:00.000+07:00

Aduh makin sarap saja sayaaa, setalah mid zz suka ketawa2 gajelas mempasrahi nilai
aneehnya, mid semester 2 ini ak lebih nyante bgt dbanding mid semester awal. mungkin udah biasa ma ritme (bahasanya meeen) soal - soal yang ihwaw susah. Klo dulu wktu SMP, nyesel banget kalo mpe ada soal essai maupun pilihan ganda yang kosong, ssekarang mah pasrah aja. Banyak temen yang bilang klo mereka cuman nulis ulang soal, trus dkasih 'diket diket' gitu, ma tulis rumus hemmm bahkan yang paling ekstrem tuh ada yang lembar jawab MTKnya cuman ditulis nama. Dia bahkan bisa seminggu nggak masuk sekolah, dan kalo dateng, masuknya telat masyaallah. Memang sih, temen ak yg satu itu udah ada pegangan, jadi msalkan aja di DO dari skolah yaaa, udah bisa cari duit sendiri, lah scara dia itu webster hacker dan semacam semacam itu lah, sampai ke bandung buat jadi pembicara di seminar IT IT gitu.
Tapi lain kepala lain pikiran ya (ya iyalah). Ada beberapa anak yang emang Study Oriented bgt. Kayak temen sekelasku, dia nggak suka ma hal hal yang berbau organisasi yang bakal nyita waktu dia belajar. Beda banget ma ak yang yaaa seneng seneng aja ikut program2 OSIS yang rame dan nambah pengalaman itu. Dia aja hampir keluar klub KIRnya loh, gara gara pengen konsen ke Olimpiade Matematikanya. Ak kan sempet liat bukunya yang jdulnya kurang lebih semacam 'Buku Panduan Olimpiade Matematika' :-B, trus ak nanya "Nggak pusing apa baca kyk ginian mulu ras?", "Bukan pusing, tapi bo-sen". Gundul anda, batin saya. Gahul bgt sih, mpe bosen saking seringnya ckck.
Ada juga temenku nih, yang saking sibuknya berorganisasi, smpe hapir g prnah ikut plajaran Bu Narni selama sebulan. Ada ajalah acaranya dia, dari program kecil mpe nyari - nyari tanda tangan. Hem. Tapi disisi lain ada juga tmenku , sebut X, yang nggak suka ma sekolah, nggak bangga, dan nggak niat jadinya. Kalo sekolah hampir ndaud gitu. Awal - awal sekolah sih yaa sering main gitu di sekolah. Lama - lama jarang banget ak liat dia. Trus si Y, yang pernah mpe tahap 'kalo ga bolos kayak ada sesuatu yang ilang'. wow.
Aduh jadi ganyambung ya, dari ngomongin mid, jadi karakteristik orang2 di sekolah saya haha dibilangin juga lagi sarap gara gara kemaren abis mid FISIKA KIMIA DALAM SATU HARI !

blah

too night

2009-03-15T00:23:00.000+07:00

yeah, tonight is just too night and I am still awake :D

tonight I'll be the director! aha! this is my show :

da da da da........!
'BANG'

my computer board screams at me : HEY THIS IS 12.48 AM!
my brain worked out : WHAT DO YOU DO? Just realize, your body is snoring out
my feet rolled their eyes : Hmph, it's boring and tiring, yew know?
my fingers yelled at me : Oh GOD!! We need a rest. This girl is crazy!
my pants : speechless, hoahm
my eyes worked so hard : Please please please! Those colors and lights are making us going crazy! I just can't resist that. Oh no
my throat zipped out : mmmmmmmm-mad. Mm-y vvo-ice is g-g-gon-ne
and finally... (1.01 AM)
my mouth yawned : hoahm
my finger pushed in start button and selected 'Shut down'
my right hand closed up my yawning mouth
and my left hand touch the night lamp on button
my feet walked me into the room light button and made it off mode
my hands were touching my face
my face was so weird
my left hand were brings out my blanket
and my body just lay down on my bed
then my right hand reached my handphone
my finger touch the Walkman button, sleep mode, and placed it back above my pillow
H-O-A-H-M
take position, fly to my dream
ding
finally finally my eyes were closed
and my night dream was just started

ahahahahhaa
BLAH

boredom

2009-03-14T23:11:00.000+07:00

listening to : cash cash - sugar rush

Hem, i don't know. No comment for this night -.- is it fun, is it boring, is it freshening? I don't have any idea. Let's see. Tonight I went out with my JHS friends (FYI they're a couple). It's been fun, yeah you know. We talked about what happen to our old friends and our high school. A bit nostalgia. We were having enough fun, we ate, and we walked. I am losing my boredom, a little bit. And I just like it. haha miss you all guys. Thanks for your annoynes, your advices, and your ear :-B
Minutes by minutes, we just talked all over about our school (we're in different school). I talked, yelled, about the boredom in my school. Everything's just good, kind, safe and sound. But that's the problem, i thought. that's just not-so-high school. i don't feel like a growing up teenager. i just feel like a, hm, student and worker. i don't feel the high-school-never-end's things. Let me say to you, my high school is a little different. yes, the area, the zone of it, is very comfortable and supportive for all of the student. we have a scheduled time, scheduled program, and a very very good attitude. But, it's normal huh? to got a bit boredom of this very good daily life.
Sometimes, I just felt like I wanna go somewhere, disappear for a moment. Maybe, this is what people said about depressed. At this node, I always remember a quote : God always give you something that you can handle, so don't stressed. It works. It cheers me up :)
Oh god. This is just high school. And high school is just a little part of my whole life. Hm, I'm already entering this part. Maybe I should just enjoy it and taking the happiness of it, because I can't get out of it.
Call me hyperbolic. But this is just a little voice of mine.

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FINALLY, TUC ROCKS

2009-03-09T11:59:00.000+07:00

tuc family, abis selese acara nih :))

TUC keeeewl!!!
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa you rock guys!
smua panitia keren hahaha
perdek : wow, keren bgt, kalian mpe nginep segala, worth it. dekornya lucu
bankom : little trouble, huh. haha hari H ak juga bankom hloo, pegang HT hehe mendesa. tapi bankom rocks out deh, geloh menggiring kambing kembali ke kandang (baca : menggiiring ank SMP ke aula)
konsumsi : bagusbagus tapi ak g dpet makan nih :|
jagru : krik krik hahahaha tapi kereeeen
acara : mondar mandir g keruan haha selamat acaranya berhasil :D
pendaftaran : sukseeeed meeeeen. sdikit ksalahn d tata nama, tapi salut bener. it worths :))
usaha : pencari uang, amin bgt nih. gada duit yg kurang. kita LABA hahaha
dokum : thanks foto-fotonya haha. apalagi wkt ank2 pda ngrjain, jd g bosen halah
publi : aaaaaa sie saya nih haha thanks vina prima buat desainyya, kul bgt deeeh \m/ yeah g jemput bolaaa :))

everybody were so great. thanks! smuanya kompak meeeeen yeah

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Chilling

2009-03-09T08:30:00.000+07:00

Adhitia Sofyan - Adelaide Sky
wow, lagunya seru banget, keren, nunjukkin kalo musisi indonesia jg bsa bkin lagu yg keren haha

I need to know what's on your mind
These coffee cups are getting cold
Mind the people passing by
They don't know I'll be leaving soon

I'll fly away tomorrow
To far away
I'll admit a cliché
Things won't be the same without you

I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

I'll let you know what's on my mind
I wish they've made you portable
Then I'll carry you around and round
I bet you'll look good on me

I'll fly away tomorrow
It's been fun
I'll repeat the cliché
Things won't be the same without you

I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

I've been meaning to call you soon
But we're in different times
You might not be home now
Would you take a message
I'll try to stay awake
And fight your presence in my head
(http://www.lyricsmode.com/)

I'll be looking at my window seeing Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember
I'll be hearing my own foot steps under Adelaide sky
Would you be kind enough to remember me

choices

2009-03-04T22:28:00.000+07:00

listen to : pwgskns - welcoming the sophomore

hem, this have been my habit since the GVT things hoaaaaaaaaaa
sleep so lately. like now, it's already 11 pm but im still awake and o n l i n e zzzzz
sbenernya, niat malem ini sih belajar, mau ngrjain tugas bu puji yg 'karangan persuasi' yg sjak 3 minggu lalu ktunda2 :|, tp yaa namanya juga udah sifat lahir ya mau gmana lagi, skalinya ada tulisan d board 'status : connected' yaaa lgsg online haha nah niat sbenerny mau searching materi gtu, eh eh eh lamaa, yaudah akhrnya trketiklah 'www.facebook.com' yaaaa you know laah endingnya gmana. ya bsa ktebak, akhirny ak lbih konsen ma fesbuk, 1 tab buat googling, 4 tab buat fesbuk, 1 tab buat blogging :DD wahwahwah plajar macam apa saya ini ya? udah sering ijin kluar kelas, ratau sinau, eh wktu istirahat buat ngenet, wktu blajar buat tidur. ealahlah mau jdi ap saya nanti? zzzzzzzz

****

oke oke back to reality, jngankan cita - cita, orang mau IPA IPSnya aj ak blm jelas. aaaaaa. so many things that i have to decide. hem, klo diliat dari minat sih, ak dri kcil pgen design hem hem hem tp gatau deh, ak jg g bgitu yakin gtu. yg jelas im not interested of being a doctor at all! i thought it was and it is boring, because everyone just wants that job (idih sok banget eke V). nah nah mkanya, akhr2 ini ak pgen msuk arsitek haha soalny kan ad design2ny juga and i always love building and design, so that's it, ak lbih condong pgen k IPA hmeeeeeee. dan you know what? wktu tes psikologi minat, hsil tes minat prtamaku : SCIENCE. whooaaa bgt, i didn't expect that before. alesan slanjtnya, IPA lbih fleksibel (nahloo plinplan ai), ntar kalo tiba2 ak pgen jd insinyur tp ak msuk IPS kan gbs.. tp yg bkin ak dilemaa, d skolahku tuh klo yg IPS hmpir smuanya sukses msuk PTN whoaaaaaaa. jumat minggu lalu, ad training motivasi leadership ma pnjurusan gtu d skolah. ak kan ikut tuh, siapa tau bner2 bs bkin mantep. but i was wrong. this motivator just making me more confused about the choice i've to decide. what the huh. hemmm there's just still 3 more months to go, three months to think all about this.

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pee wee gaskinssssss :)

2009-03-01T18:38:00.000+07:00

Todaaaaaaaaay. hem, call me mendesa. but i felt so glad this day! yeaaaaaaah. I met Pee Wee Gaskins and asking asking (sbut aja wawancr) :))
sbnerny nyesel bgt, knapa g kmaren aj wkt sblm episentrum, biar komplet gtu hloo!yaudah, buat plajarn bsok2nya aja. this is our picts! :)

pict 1. lagak ai ma mb wulan sok2 nanya; pict 2. hasem mas vare foto privat, hmme; pict 3. haha sign here please!; pict 4. FB FB FB :)); pict 5. yeah!!!!
eya, ptamanya we thought that they're a bit arrogant. but we were all wrong haha they quiet down to earth and friendly. whoaaa it just a fun to interviewed them

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