anywhere but here

I'm so lost this backadays. Lost about you. I feel so far away.
Where are you? Where are you?
Why should I shout your name? Why did I questions your existance?
How could I feel this way?
This is not the way I am. I never feel this way.
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As I try to forget and being careless, the more I question, the more I did care
What is this? What is this?
Oh how the hell you could do this

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