i don't even care if my mom or my sister read this post, and stare me like 'what are you doing' with big eyes and opened mouth

too many words to be spread. too many heartbeats to count. and too many feelings to be thrown. that's what i think when i have to described you, dude. i have known you one year ago, yes one year ago, since when i went to our highschool. and i think i pretty know you. we're never that far, and so do never that close before. you're the one i could never forget, i don't know why. being around y never makes me nervous or what, i just comfortable with you. maybe because we've known each other for a pretty long time, but i respect you as my friends i just think you're such a best friend of mine, i share my story and all my yells to you.
im not waiting for you to say, i even didn't dare to. i don't want to be those optimistic, being with you is just nice enough. letting you know that i do care for you is just what i want to. im not pushing you to claim or underlining our relation. i just want you to know, and want me to know that you do.
it's all unpredictable, im letting it flows as the time goes. settle my mind to the nothing to loose mode, but then you did say. thanks for what you've done :) now, im still wondering, how would this life be when there's no you inside my lifetime page...
too many words to be spread. too many heartbeats to count. and too many feelings to be thrown... yes it is.


blah