30 03 2012. happy birthday to me.

I finally reached this age. Bigger number for bigger aim. :)

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highschool never ends. craziest birthday surprise. damn. haha damn ya'll too great! XXX

superawsome hanging-alphabet. all handmade. awesome future architect is awsum. *headbang*

looks similar to my twttr's ava. deer oh deer.  just llllllove it!

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second trial seems to worth nothing.

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sixteen :-)

30/03/2010

happy birthday to me.

that day was a great day to pass. even there's no him around hehe. family sang a happy birthday when I woke up. friends give me some gifts, ririe&mas didot with their puzzle, nina and her shirt, anna and the toy paper, and the rewooos, wulan sinta izan uma sandy abel wanti maya ami erlina tia ayang rini, gave me a hand made lamp, and the rest gave me a burst of school pond's water and i'm goin wet -,.- 

and then I got home. took a shower. go to my mom's room. but then home's bell rang. my sister said that there's my friend outside. and then I came out. well there's him out there, standing, holding a plate of birthday cake, smiles to me. surprised. he said that he was goin out from city in the morning. and then he did a confession, week before that he acted like a shit ass, so annoying, full of badmood, and then he confessed that it was all for surprise. oh how I hate him that time haha and he gave me those picture above. it's from canvas, in black and white paint. again, thanky-o-u dude :-)

well now, it's almost a month I'm being a sixteen yeats old quirks. hope it would be a great year to pass and to learn. good start must be have a good end too, rite? xxxxo

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eleventh

moody; abstract mind, bourdained of thoughts

disorientation; nowhere to go, confused by ourselves

labile; sensitive? easy to explode when given a shake

those are three words that I've learnt in this November rain.

how about you? :)

p.s: 2 months&i knw y better :p amin

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i don't even care if my mom or my sister read this post, and stare me like 'what are you doing' with big eyes and opened mouth

too many words to be spread. too many heartbeats to count. and too many feelings to be thrown. that's what i think when i have to described you, dude. i have known you one year ago, yes one year ago, since when i went to our highschool. and i think i pretty know you. we're never that far, and so do never that close before. you're the one i could never forget, i don't know why. being around y never makes me nervous or what, i just comfortable with you. maybe because we've known each other for a pretty long time, but i respect you as my friends i just think you're such a best friend of mine, i share my story and all my yells to you.
im not waiting for you to say, i even didn't dare to. i don't want to be those optimistic, being with you is just nice enough. letting you know that i do care for you is just what i want to. im not pushing you to claim or underlining our relation. i just want you to know, and want me to know that you do.
it's all unpredictable, im letting it flows as the time goes. settle my mind to the nothing to loose mode, but then you did say. thanks for what you've done :) now, im still wondering, how would this life be when there's no you inside my lifetime page...
too many words to be spread. too many heartbeats to count. and too many feelings to be thrown... yes it is.


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hellyeah

no pain, no gain

i don't know about the ending. i don't even want to know. seems like i want it to be like this. don't know how long, and how hurt it would be. i've prepared the drug, now just walk.
im fifteen and in a dizziness. im fifteen and just started my highschool journey back. im fifteen and there's still a lot to do out there. im fifteen and i want to learn. this is one of my way to. we should taste the pain, to gain a learning, to be better.
nothing to loose hahaha


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kubah

again&again. on the top of the mosque; the al uswah

we're not skipping class. there's no class yeah

me; hera; sri; shinta; tomo; yoga; ardiben; izaaaan

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11

lama nggak posting -____________-
ya ya ya. saya sekarang sudah kelas 11 loh. udah 3 bulanan lah jadi senior nomer dua di sekolah.
saya sekarang juga sudah di kelas 11 ipa 7. bukan di 10.8 lagi :
prtamanya masuk ipa 7, ak smpet mati gaya ngliat orang2nya yg alim2 gitu. sempet ngiri juga sama kelas lain yg anakny rame2 dan udah kliatan kompak. smpet sih ngerasa garing gitu di kelas. smpet juga sm temen2 eks 10.8, menggerundel kenapa harus cepet2 kelas 11, soalnya di kelas gada bolonya hem hem.

semalam sebelum tujuh belasan;

sempet hopeless sih sama kelasku. mau gerak jalan pake kostum apa whatsoever lah. ak pribadi nggak gitu ngurus. siapa yang ikut lomba oyeah juga so what. aslinya sih niat nggak dateng. sampaaaai gayuh, ketua kelas kita sms apa kostum tujuh belasannya. hmm mau nggak mau aku jadi ikutan rewo. ngjak temen2 ikut lah. mnjem kostum blablabla

pagi hari, tujuh belasan;

upacara bndera. habis itu rewo ganti baju&ngajakin anak2 buat ikut gerak jalan. msalahnya, kbnyakan anak2 pada jadi panitia tujuhbelasan hemmmmmm

terik, gerak jalan;

dengan modal kostum seadanya, kita gerak jalan deh. sekitar 12an orang yg ikut zzzz dikit lah. tapi untung kita puny yel-yel yang oke. trus nemuin nama kelas yg asik: MAS PAIDJO haha apasih.

semakin terik, ditengah gerak jalan;

tiap kelas baris urut buat gerak jalannya. ipa 7 dibelakang ipa 6: SI PAINEM. nggak ngrti gimana, tau2 kita udah saling ejek2an kelas gitu :)) bercanda smbil ketawa2. fun banget lah. tiba2 aja kita kompak nyanyiin yel yel kelas haha

hmmm, trnyata lumayanlah kelasku. ipa 7 rocks. mas paidjoooo, hey jogoo! ROFLMFAO
setahun aku bakalan di ipa 7.

semoga menyenangkan :)

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remembering summerswing :)

welcome to the VVVVVVVVIP row :p

haha my sweaty hair :B

i'm wif the peace sign!

i don't know. this night i just got remember to the Summerswing. i just love this event haha well, after those cynical thingie from the alumnus, then those kind of protest from some students, those bad misunderstanding wif another program, almost-boycott, and tons of another 'candy' memories.
first thing we discussed about for this event is just how to make it different, how to make it WOW, and how to give the outsiders another view about our school. that besides those science club, religion club, we still have this, an appreciation for music and art. we just want to show that 'hey, we also have this side'. that's my point of view. first, it just go on so good. all of us were so onfire. we're so excited, to began a new revolution and make people see, the another side.
till it's in the middle. meeting by meeting. discussion by discussion. there's no conclusion on evry of our meeting. it's just filled up by laughing or out of topic things. we're not working together. no feeling. we're not onfire again. we yelled. we talk bad things we don't know. we just unsatisfied and wooried. while another program seems so great, and just work as it used to, we just felt so small. we're very bonded from the outside but empty in the inside. LOL
but lucky us, in the end. very end. in the D Day................ I felt so onfire. two days before the Day, I was totally sickkkkk. totally. I'm on the bed all the time. listen to the slow song, tried to sleep well, so i would have some energy. felt dizzy. coughing. vommit. zzzzz. im just so scared that i wouldn't get into the Day. i just want it so badly. so i ate everything. i drank hot tea, ate those veggies and fruits blablabla. and voila for God sake. thanks. in the Day and D-1 i can attend this event and work as the best as i can :)
although aftr SS 09 was held, there is some, hmm i mean many comments. i don't feel sad. i just like this event. though there're some subjective bad comments from other school or what. i just feel whatever. there're some good comments too, i mean. it's our first time and i thinks we should be focus on the good cmmnts, to move us on. and for the bad ones, that's just for correction and we'd better stay cool than respond it on. just waste the time and energy :p peace all. thnks fr yer respond, but see it again and take a look at yer mirror.
last, i just want to say thanks for all of the crew. thnks fr the mmries anyway. you're all doin' great. and i love my school. and gogogo for 2009.
loveyall
xoxo


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