it's funny now, 
how when I looked into benches in my terrace, all the scenes are rewinding 

there, on the bench, we talked about everything
there, on the bench, you were joking around
there, on the bench, the night temperature wasn't a matter
there, on the bench, you stood up holding a birthday cake
then there, on the bench, you reveal me your dishonest
also surprised me with that funny giraffe
there, on the bench, I slap you then laughing out loud
there, on the bench, you poked me back
there, on the bench, you said you are about to have a college test soon
and now I was saying that so
there, on the bench, I always pick the leaf, chop it, and throw it to you
there, on the bench, you were wondering why did there's no fish in the pond
there, on the bench, you said I'm going more blubbery
then I said you're too thin
there, on the bench, you played my hair
and I always said 'don't be jealous of my hair, cause it grows down, not up like yours'
there, on the bench, we were waiting for the rain off
there, on the bench, we shared our dreams
there, on the bench, silence never harm the convenience
...



blah

words, stories, thoughts. all from my dizzy temple

ever know that words are swords.
and now, after that plenty of times, I find again that this quote is simply true

say what you need to say, not what you want to say.
because, maybe what we want isn't mutually good for what we need. say what we need to say means holding our passion to talk about anything, that may, be a secret. say what we need to say, not talking too much, because once you're wrong, it may kills you. even for a second.

shares story with God
feeling unconvenient to tell my stories, uhm, problems explicitly about what I feel don't ever mean that I don't need a place to say it out loud. but, need a place also don't have a meaning that its place would given to a human, no. I'd rather to reveal it to God, since I have faith that God always see what we've did, always listening, always understanding. shares story with God commonly filled with tears and anger, where I sometimes just laying on the floor after the pray, and let the tears fell down my face. God never give me any advice, God never give me an instant solvement, and also God never ever say a word to me, as if I tell story to my friends. But, magically, without that clarity, I feel relieve. The value is not about the answer, but about the feeling I get, that God surely listens. The contemplation that really save me from being out of line.

not that I do not believe
I like you guys, parents, sister. sometimes I'm being too weird, if I had a problem. It doesn't reflect my belief to you, I'm surely believe you guys. I know you may hear me, you would like to solve the problem too, helps me. But it's all just about the comfort, the convenience, not the trust. And, however I'm moving forward, not as introvert as before hehe

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Randomly talking like an ass. Based on my body's temper. Not really well. And my thoughts, that's also a bit sick haha have fun, the Lebaran Day is coming :D woo hoo


blah

morning world

this is my lousy t-shirt. it was my mother's. it's so comfortable even if it was ripped in several places hahaha the older tee you have, the more comfort to wear, rite?
hmm now it's 9 and a half hour. now it's already night. but lemme say goodmorning, an acronym for spirit. this is day minus twoooooooo for VOTE#10. Can't wait!! :-) It must be really joyable!

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top 5 old skool band

1. The Beatles

LIKE THIS :) esp for the accent hehe 

♥ Help!, Hey Jude, Come Together 

 2. Queen

The iconic band. Can't get enough of bohemian rhapsody huehe 

♥ Bohemian Rhapsody, Bicycle

 3. Duran Duran

My mother was like crazy about this band. She was even rent a DVD of duran-duran's v clip when she was young hahaha and I have no wonder how I love British band, according to my mom :p 

♥ Rio, Hungry Like the Wolf

4. Carpenters

My parents, especially my mom often play its songs. And I'm influenced woohoo

 ♥ Can't Smile Without You, Close to You, We've Only Just Begun

5. The Smiths

suddenly love this band by its single on 500 days of summer :) 

 ♥ There's a Light That Never Goes Out, Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want 

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since I was a kid, I always want to be an architect.

but I grew older and time keep elaborating my view about the working environment

ambassador, politician, doctor, socialist...

and now I'm in 11th grade. minus 1 year again to point what's actually I'm purposing to be

linking back to what I like. I like seeing buildings and suburbs. They're beautiful. Well seems like I'd like to be an architect, or an infrastructure planner, still :d

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can't get enough of

#1 LADY GAGA TO INDONESIA PLEASE :p

since we know that her stage performance is always unpredictable, I was just curious about what she would perform, in a country like this, like Indonesia. With her eccentric fashion taste and blah blah blah, and about her stage decoration! viva la just dance

#2 LYKKE LI LOVE

saw her firstly in Little Bit video, suddenly fell in love with her catchy voice&tunes. How she could made some painful lyric in a fun way :D and about her voice, like a kinder voice, like it lykke it hehe again, like her way to wrote a broken heart song, but make us optimistic, not shrinkin by the tears

#3 ESRA ROISE <3
got her web from BabyBoss magazine! I like the way she mix a pencil art with fashion daily. It was just artsy. Heart the idea, combining a pure pencil art with watercolor! brilliant, isn't it?

#4 RUSSEL
I have a friends that looks like RUSSEL, funny, chubby, and silly haha I always laugh when she shouts 'good afternoon, my name is Russel', or 'I'm the one blablabla should be explored, Gaa Gaaa, RAWR!'. Really a stress-free theraphy. And since our journal club, sigma, like to repeat that scene, we made a new tagline too.... 'Sigma, should be explored! Gaa Gaa RAWR'

#5 TWITTEURRR
since that wi - fi is just everywhere, and since that my phone could catch its signal, and since I couldn't be far of my phone, I can't get enough of tweeting. Sounds trashy, rite? Your tweet your bear, but also your news. If I got boring, open it up make you seems not alone. trust me


i'm hungry!
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sixteen things I wish to happen

1. live peace in heaven :))
2. HOLIDAY
3. acara TE-U-CE yang berhasil + berlaba :)
4. new CONVERSATION TEACHER haha
5. main ma temen2 lamaaaaaaa
6. meet a really new people
7. my GPRS mode on zzz
8. W595
9. a laptop with giga giga memory and webcam :)
10. LOMO LOMO LOMO
11. a snapshot camera, a little pocket camera
12. anti virus for my snaily COMPUTER argh
13. MATURITY
14. being a DJ for radio, aha i wish
15. TT TT TT TT TT TT BREAKTROUGH maimen
16. All those things up HAPPEN.

aaaaa wish pray wish
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