how when I looked into benches in my terrace, all the scenes are rewinding
there, on the bench, we talked about everything
there, on the bench, you were joking around
there, on the bench, the night temperature wasn't a matter
there, on the bench, you stood up holding a birthday cake
then there, on the bench, you reveal me your dishonest
also surprised me with that funny giraffe
there, on the bench, I slap you then laughing out loud
there, on the bench, you poked me back
there, on the bench, you said you are about to have a college test soon
and now I was saying that so
there, on the bench, I always pick the leaf, chop it, and throw it to you
there, on the bench, you were wondering why did there's no fish in the pond
there, on the bench, you said I'm going more blubbery
then I said you're too thin
there, on the bench, you played my hair
and I always said 'don't be jealous of my hair, cause it grows down, not up like yours'
there, on the bench, we were waiting for the rain off
there, on the bench, we shared our dreams
there, on the bench, silence never harm the convenience
and now, after that plenty of times, I find again that this quote is simply true
say what you need to say, not what you want to say.
because, maybe what we want isn't mutually good for what we need. say what we need to say means holding our passion to talk about anything, that may, be a secret. say what we need to say, not talking too much, because once you're wrong, it may kills you. even for a second.
shares story with God
feeling unconvenient to tell my stories, uhm, problems explicitly about what I feel don't ever mean that I don't need a place to say it out loud. but, need a place also don't have a meaning that its place would given to a human, no. I'd rather to reveal it to God, since I have faith that God always see what we've did, always listening, always understanding. shares story with God commonly filled with tears and anger, where I sometimes just laying on the floor after the pray, and let the tears fell down my face. God never give me any advice, God never give me an instant solvement, and also God never ever say a word to me, as if I tell story to my friends. But, magically, without that clarity, I feel relieve. The value is not about the answer, but about the feeling I get, that God surely listens. The contemplation that really save me from being out of line.
not that I do not believe
I like you guys, parents, sister. sometimes I'm being too weird, if I had a problem. It doesn't reflect my belief to you, I'm surely believe you guys. I know you may hear me, you would like to solve the problem too, helps me. But it's all just about the comfort, the convenience, not the trust. And, however I'm moving forward, not as introvert as before hehe
Randomly talking like an ass. Based on my body's temper. Not really well. And my thoughts, that's also a bit sick haha have fun, the Lebaran Day is coming :D woo hoo
|I want to see m o r e.|
I'm sixteen now. And there's so much things I want to do, so much things I eager to know, so much things I want to show and gazillion I want to learn. I'm thirst for that adventure. My life's good but it's not a sin for wanting more, rite?. I want experiences. Backpacking w/ some friends, ride a car by my own, go to Kalimantan, Lombok, Middle East, and Russia. I want 'em all!
I want to fill my bedroom's wall with my own sketch, buy some roses and place it near my window then smell them every morning. And I want to plant a sunflower on my little garden's soil, want to add some fish into the pond, want to place a bouquet of lavender in the dining room. I want to make a lampoon, a red one, to lit my night so I wouldn't feel alone hahaha
I'm stuck rite now.I've done some things but I consider so well that those things are not enough. I'll live maximally for about 90 years again, and could be productively having fun for about 8 years then I'll get married (whwhwhat?) --" so, wish me luck to enjoy all of this! as you know, we only live o n c e.
|jakarta's afternoon polluted sky|
|the high and the low. capitalism|
|messy infastructure. I'd love to help when i'm an engineer :p|
|build. build. build. hey bosses, better you spent your money on improving what the city have had.|
|the sanggar tari dance|
|bondan and fade 2 black in action|
this is my lousy t-shirt. it was my mother's. it's so comfortable even if it was ripped in several places hahaha the older tee you have, the more comfort to wear, rite?
hmm now it's 9 and a half hour. now it's already night. but lemme say goodmorning, an acronym for spirit. this is day minus twoooooooo for VOTE#10. Can't wait!! :-) It must be really joyable!
TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB!!
found this Electro/Indie Pop band from Northern Ireland on Last.fm website. Downloaded their song titled Something Good Can Work and suddenly just love its beat and somehow the vocalis's accent (Y) Woohoo, a new band to listen for sure!
me like Something Good Can Work. You're Not Stubborn, Undercover Martyn, What You Know, and I Can Talk<3
für den roten Himmel blaue Luftballons candy Gras gelbe Sonne Meer Green Ocean Vögel violetten Lilien Blume Land regen Filme Musiken iPod Computer-grau schwarz weiss zebra girrafe Photoshop Eis Kamera All Time Low Hellogoodbye Kunst Skizzenbuch Turnschuhe Gummischuhe Pink Orange Pfirsich Joghurt Donuts Scanner glow in the dunkle Fläche Sofa Magazin Pop-up-Kaffee-Tee Vitamin C Wolke Wind die Bäume und die wilden und alle wegen meiner Lieblingsbeschäftigungen.
Ich vermisse dich
pour le ciel rouge bleu bonbons ballons de la mer d'herbe jaune soleil vert oiseaux océan violet fleur de lys terres films pluie musiques iPod ordinateur gris noir blanc photoshop girrafe zèbre crème glacée appareil tous all time low hellogoodbye art chaussures en caoutchouc sketchbook espadrilles rose pêche yaourt orange beignets scanners brillent dans le sombre pop magazine avion canapé au café de vitamine C thé nuage brise les arbres et les sauvages et toutes les raisons de mes choses préférées.
Tu me manques
for the red sky blue balloons candy grass yellow sun sea green ocean birds violet lily flower land rain movies musics iPod computer gray black white zebra girrafe photoshop ice cream camera all time low hellogoodbye art sketchbook sneakers rubber shoes pink orange peach yoghurt donuts scanners glow in the dark plane sofa magazine pop up coffee tea vitamin C cloud breeze the trees and the wild and all the sake of my favorite things.
"Adieu saison qui finissezVous nous reviendrez aussi tendres"
"Farewell season has finishedYou will return to us as tender"
1. The Beatles
♥ Help!, Hey Jude, Come Together
♥ Bohemian Rhapsody, Bicycle
3. Duran Duran
♥ Rio, Hungry Like the Wolf
♥ Can't Smile Without You, Close to You, We've Only Just Begun
5. The Smiths
♥ There's a Light That Never Goes Out, Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want
happy birthday ayusarita! she's seventeen now.
seventeen is an important year. It has to be surprising, fascinating haha because I think, seventeen (espescially for a girl) is a year that marks a maturity of a teenager. in seventeen years, you could drive yer own car. you could watch a plus film hahaha (it's a lie, those age parenting is just bullshit, isn't it?) ;p
hope you'll have a good year, pal!
made by me, him, anna, nina :)
Where are you? Where are you?
Why should I shout your name? Why did I questions your existance?
How could I feel this way?
This is not the way I am. I never feel this way.
As I try to forget and being careless, the more I question, the more I did care
What is this? What is this?
Oh how the hell you could do this
What a bad game I had haha I'm in underdog place -______________- score of 11 or something zz but after that, 2 weeks later we played and I'm in a middle place with about 40 something score, wee-hoo! such an improvement rite? :P
Saya sedang nggak jelas dengan semuanya, semua rencana udah kebayang tapi nggak ada yang 100% beres. Saya tau mau ngelakuinnya gimana, tapi juga nggak kelaksana. Ibarat kaki deh ya, saya udah tau cara nendangnya tapi kok ya nggak mental - mental. Kenapa ya? Apa saya terlalu individual? Ah kayaknya saya juga udah terbuka sama yang lain. Apa ini cuma galau sementara? Kalau iya, mau sampai kapan? Waktu tuh jalan terus, kita nggak bisa diam aja.
#1 LADY GAGA TO INDONESIA PLEASE :p
got her web from BabyBoss magazine! I like the way she mix a pencil art with fashion daily. It was just artsy. Heart the idea, combining a pure pencil art with watercolor! brilliant, isn't it?
I have a friends that looks like RUSSEL, funny, chubby, and silly haha I always laugh when she shouts 'good afternoon, my name is Russel', or 'I'm the one blablabla should be explored, Gaa Gaaa, RAWR!'. Really a stress-free theraphy. And since our journal club, sigma, like to repeat that scene, we made a new tagline too.... 'Sigma, should be explored! Gaa Gaa RAWR'
since that wi - fi is just everywhere, and since that my phone could catch its signal, and since I couldn't be far of my phone, I can't get enough of tweeting. Sounds trashy, rite? Your tweet your bear, but also your news. If I got boring, open it up make you seems not alone. trust me
economic train. so hot. but music helps anyway
after 5 hours train trip. 1 hour bus trip. small bus. raining
day 1; research
my team's research is about goa rengganis. to go there, we had to rent a boat!
this is the isle we pass. me and hera (my team mates) love it so much!
day 2; research? what is that?
climb into the waterfall!